Hello everyone this forum has been a wonderful tool over the last few weeks for me. I have seen and read a lot of stories but I just cant seem to find any like mine. First off I am 26 years old. My grandfather died last year. He was diagnosed with Esophageal Cancer on New Years Eve and died January 24th. His cancer took him very quickly. Because of how close I was to him and I suppose how hands on I was with him at the end combined with the speed his cancer killed him I have developed extreme health anxiety and just general anxiety all around. Health anxiety however has been very crippling. It shocked me just how quickly the cancer killed my grandfather with minimal symptoms leading up to his death. I have battled with a bunch benign and trivial ailments thinking they were something deadly. For example I had a rash or something on my leg my first thought was skin cancer. I had little lines under my finger nails I thought it was bacterial endocarditis. Breast cancer, colon cancer, leukemia you name it I have convinced myself I have had it over the last year and a half. I have never in my life been like this. Not even remotely neurotic about anything. This too is a point of stress and anxiety for me. I have had all of these things checked out FYI. I am apparently crazy not stupid. I have none of those things. It seems once I am cleared of one thing mentally I must move on to another. My cousins wedding was on April 2nd and I flew down to florida. I convinced myself that the plane was going to crash. Not MIGHT crash, that it was GOING to crash. Obviously the plane didn't crash but I can't explain or illustrate how terrified I was to get on that plane. I then came home and the next day I had an ache in my left testicle. Upon feeling my testicle I felt a lump. I now convinced myself I had testicular cancer. It was about a week or two into stressing about the testicular cancer I started noticing thinning on my right temple. So now I have testicular cancer and I am going bald. A wonderful combination of anxiety. I got my testicle checked and my doctor told me I NEEDED an ultra sound ASAP. So I stressed and thought about nothing else for another week before an ultrasound. Thankfully everything is clear with my testicle. So that leaves this diffusion, or male pattern baldness, or bald patch. I don't know. That all included I lost my job last year and health insurance, I have health insurance now but that was a fun month not having health insurance. I still live at home at 26, I am paying back student loans with a crap job that only pays for student loans, and now that my grandmother lives with us I am watching her slowly kill my mother from stress. My hope is that I have Telogen Effluvium from stress. I don't notice any shedding at all. The occasional hair here and there but not SHEDDING. When I wake up if there are 2 or 3 hairs on my pillow its a lot. I don't see hair in the shower or on my hand at all. No hair on the towel when I dry my hair. Very little to no hair on my comb when i comb my hair. I have been wearing dark shirts to see if i can see any shedding on my collar or shoulders and nothing. So I don't have noticeable shedding except for the fact that there is a distinct thinness or open spot in my hair line. Also this spot has developed I would say from early to mid April to now. I KNOW it wasn't there before that. I don't have thinning in the back or on the other temple or anywhere else on my head. My hair is growing fast and I need a haircut. Which is stressing me out because now I can cover it up. But if i cut it I can't cover it up anymore and there will be this embarrassing space. I honestly understand most men go bald but this just doesn't seem like male pattern baldness to me. It seems too fast. My father started losing his hair when he was 18 and was completely bald when he was 25. Same with all the other bald men in my family. They all lost their hair very young. I know genetics is genetics but I figured I was in the clear. My hair is really thick and soft all around. My father said even before he lost his hair it was never thick and soft. It also grows unbelievably fast. At least if I started going bald I would have a few years. This pace seems fast and i will have no temples by next year. Any way I am just looking for some advice. I am getting a dermatologist appointment ASAP. Sorry for the length of this and the somewhat personal details. I am obviously hoping for Telogen Effluvium because its obviously the most advantageous in the sense that the hair will grow back and if thats true then my anxiety over all of this will most likely slip away allowing it to grow again. Anyway thank you all in advanced and pictures are below.
Update since forum crash:
I went to my PCP today and he said he notices some hair loss but he also thinks it is caused by dermatitis. He gave me Ketoconazole 2% and said to use it twice a week. He said if I don't notice a change he will refer me to a derm. He also didn't dismiss Telogen Effluvium and he also didn't flat out say no to male pattern baldness. I'm still not at ease. But hopefully this shampoo does something. It just seems like I have Pattern Baldness but the way a woman would lose it (if that's possible). Just in the top and middle of my scalp not the back and not the much on the sides. My hair is really good everywhere else. A little thin in the front but my part is terrible and it seems the bald spot is right in the center. Idk at least it's early days and I have some time albeit very little but some time to figure this out.
Pictures below are over the course of a week. It seems to be getting worse everyday and I don't notice any shedding. male pattern baldness can't move this fast right? Especially if I don't notice any shedding. I swear I can move my hand through my hair without any loss, nothing in the shower, nothing on the pillow, nothing in my comb. I must have had a huge shed and as my hair gets longer it just looks worse. My fingers are crossed for Telogen Effluvium or this dermatitis. Otherwise I will be really bald by the end of the summer forget the end of the year.
Before pictures April 2016 and September of 2015 http://imgur.com/a/hSaap
http://imgur.com/a/wYv6e
http://imgur.com/a/0H46c
http://imgur.com/a/aO8S4
http://imgur.com/a/sqjDz
http://imgur.com/a/HJElV
Update since forum crash:
I went to my PCP today and he said he notices some hair loss but he also thinks it is caused by dermatitis. He gave me Ketoconazole 2% and said to use it twice a week. He said if I don't notice a change he will refer me to a derm. He also didn't dismiss Telogen Effluvium and he also didn't flat out say no to male pattern baldness. I'm still not at ease. But hopefully this shampoo does something. It just seems like I have Pattern Baldness but the way a woman would lose it (if that's possible). Just in the top and middle of my scalp not the back and not the much on the sides. My hair is really good everywhere else. A little thin in the front but my part is terrible and it seems the bald spot is right in the center. Idk at least it's early days and I have some time albeit very little but some time to figure this out.
Pictures below are over the course of a week. It seems to be getting worse everyday and I don't notice any shedding. male pattern baldness can't move this fast right? Especially if I don't notice any shedding. I swear I can move my hand through my hair without any loss, nothing in the shower, nothing on the pillow, nothing in my comb. I must have had a huge shed and as my hair gets longer it just looks worse. My fingers are crossed for Telogen Effluvium or this dermatitis. Otherwise I will be really bald by the end of the summer forget the end of the year.
Before pictures April 2016 and September of 2015 http://imgur.com/a/hSaap
http://imgur.com/a/wYv6e
http://imgur.com/a/0H46c
http://imgur.com/a/aO8S4
http://imgur.com/a/sqjDz
http://imgur.com/a/HJElV