Aplunk1
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I had a good run, guys. Really, things were *seriously* picking up for me, but it seems like life is throwing me out in the cold again. I'm not quite sure how to explain this, but I'll begin with this:
2 months ago, my close Uncle committed suicide. I was very close to him. It's a sad turn of events.
Now, my father will be losing his job this October, and he's sh*t out of luck because no one will buy his house. He's going to declare bankruptcy. My mum, who depends on my dad's support, will also be up sh*t creek.
That affects me because I get a lot of help from my parents. Living in NY is not cheap by any means. Unless I find a better job, my time in school and in New York will come to an end.
My two cousins are being deployed in Baghdad this Spring. They are Marines Corps. aviation engineers, both of them. They are in a very unfortunate position. I am also close to them... big time.
And to top it off, my grandmother is terminally ill with her third strike of cancer. She's a brave lady, but she's only got a few months to live. My other grandfather, had an unfortunate spill yesterday, and had to go to the E.R....
It seems like everyone around me is dying or is going to die...
To make matters worse for myself, I put myself as having only a few months savings to keep me afloat. I may not be able to continue my education. I may enter the armed services. Are there any better ideas?
For the last few days, I've been consumed with the thought of relieving the pain. Drugs, any of them, would satiate right now... but they just cause more and more problems. f***, so why am I not drinking right now?
I really can't think straight. I couldn't organize this post. It's like my mind is trying to not get involved with *feeling* anything.
2 months ago, my close Uncle committed suicide. I was very close to him. It's a sad turn of events.
Now, my father will be losing his job this October, and he's sh*t out of luck because no one will buy his house. He's going to declare bankruptcy. My mum, who depends on my dad's support, will also be up sh*t creek.
That affects me because I get a lot of help from my parents. Living in NY is not cheap by any means. Unless I find a better job, my time in school and in New York will come to an end.
My two cousins are being deployed in Baghdad this Spring. They are Marines Corps. aviation engineers, both of them. They are in a very unfortunate position. I am also close to them... big time.
And to top it off, my grandmother is terminally ill with her third strike of cancer. She's a brave lady, but she's only got a few months to live. My other grandfather, had an unfortunate spill yesterday, and had to go to the E.R....
It seems like everyone around me is dying or is going to die...
To make matters worse for myself, I put myself as having only a few months savings to keep me afloat. I may not be able to continue my education. I may enter the armed services. Are there any better ideas?
For the last few days, I've been consumed with the thought of relieving the pain. Drugs, any of them, would satiate right now... but they just cause more and more problems. f***, so why am I not drinking right now?
I really can't think straight. I couldn't organize this post. It's like my mind is trying to not get involved with *feeling* anything.
