Christopher
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Lately I've been feeling very down about my hair situation. Tonight was probably the lowest I've felt in awhile. I've decided to stop taking propecia -- I've taken it for 7 months with seemingly decent results but I've come to the conclusion that the risks involved are not worth it. If I ever became sexually dysfunctional I don't think I'd be able to live with myself. Anyways, with that choice comes the realization that I will start shedding like crazy again.
Thinking about it makes me very frustrated. I've started self-pitying myself. Asking the question -- why me? Why a 22 year old male? What will my girlfriend think? Will she still want to be with a boyfriend who is only 22 yet balding? What will my friends think? I can just foresee the annoying ridicule and stigma that will come with this process. And I truly have one of the most self-deprecating personalities you'll find, but I'm not even sure I can handle the idea of being the 'bald guy'.
I've always been a very confident person but this has really taken its toll on me psychologically. It's always in the back of my mind. At night I sometimes can't sleep thinking about it. I'm often in a very somber state and I'm too embarrassed to explain what is happening. My parents simply don't understand. Some people look good bald but I know this isn't the case for me, I have a huge f*****g head. I feel so weak admitting this, but tonight I actually cried a bit -- and I haven't cried since I was 12 when my cat died.
And I'm saying all of this 1 day before Christmas too. Which only makes it feel worse. I should be happy, not sad, right?
Anyways, I'm trying to look into the future and find some positives with all of this. Has anyone tried concealers like toppik, do they work? There isn't a history of baldness in my family, perhaps the shedding will subside soon? And a hair transplant is still a viable option down the road...
I just know I'm not risking propecia anymore, it just isn't worth it.
Thinking about it makes me very frustrated. I've started self-pitying myself. Asking the question -- why me? Why a 22 year old male? What will my girlfriend think? Will she still want to be with a boyfriend who is only 22 yet balding? What will my friends think? I can just foresee the annoying ridicule and stigma that will come with this process. And I truly have one of the most self-deprecating personalities you'll find, but I'm not even sure I can handle the idea of being the 'bald guy'.
I've always been a very confident person but this has really taken its toll on me psychologically. It's always in the back of my mind. At night I sometimes can't sleep thinking about it. I'm often in a very somber state and I'm too embarrassed to explain what is happening. My parents simply don't understand. Some people look good bald but I know this isn't the case for me, I have a huge f*****g head. I feel so weak admitting this, but tonight I actually cried a bit -- and I haven't cried since I was 12 when my cat died.
And I'm saying all of this 1 day before Christmas too. Which only makes it feel worse. I should be happy, not sad, right?
Anyways, I'm trying to look into the future and find some positives with all of this. Has anyone tried concealers like toppik, do they work? There isn't a history of baldness in my family, perhaps the shedding will subside soon? And a hair transplant is still a viable option down the road...
I just know I'm not risking propecia anymore, it just isn't worth it.