FabioM
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It´s not usual for me to post such negative posts in here but it looks like i have to do one.
I´m back from work and i feel tired, not physically tired but mentally tired.
I feel that something was took away from me, that i can never have it again. Life used to be nice and cool, i felt very confident and i would walk around in any place happy and like i wouldn´t care.
But now i just feel there´s nothing that can be done and it´s all downhill from here.
I feel lonely and i´m affraid i will be single for life, or even if i´m not single i have to marry some ugly b**ch, but i don´t even think i can go for it.
I work in an airport and everyday i see beatifull women, but not a single one notices me, i don´t exist for them. And the worst thing is that i used to be good looking and had some very fine women glancing at me in the past.
My mental state got worse when i tried to flirt with this awesome girl where i work but she isn´t interested which makes me even more distressed, frustrated and sad. I wont ever have a chance to have a girl like her and that is like i hit a barrier.
I´m going to make 25 years old next month and i´m also in the 2nd year of my university degree and working and studying in this mental state is not good. I don´t think i can survive and i´m expecting a really bad time in front of me...a really bad one.
I might shave my head but i´m not that built which wouldn´t look too good, and hanging around places like an airport and an university makes me want to go inside an hole. It would look silly, a skinny guy with a shaved head. I want to progress in the gym but the time to train and also eat is little and is halting my progress but i have to make something with my life and keep studying.
Well, sorry to put you up to this but i needed a rant.
I´m tired and i´m going to sleep.
I´m back from work and i feel tired, not physically tired but mentally tired.
I feel that something was took away from me, that i can never have it again. Life used to be nice and cool, i felt very confident and i would walk around in any place happy and like i wouldn´t care.
But now i just feel there´s nothing that can be done and it´s all downhill from here.
I feel lonely and i´m affraid i will be single for life, or even if i´m not single i have to marry some ugly b**ch, but i don´t even think i can go for it.
I work in an airport and everyday i see beatifull women, but not a single one notices me, i don´t exist for them. And the worst thing is that i used to be good looking and had some very fine women glancing at me in the past.
My mental state got worse when i tried to flirt with this awesome girl where i work but she isn´t interested which makes me even more distressed, frustrated and sad. I wont ever have a chance to have a girl like her and that is like i hit a barrier.
I´m going to make 25 years old next month and i´m also in the 2nd year of my university degree and working and studying in this mental state is not good. I don´t think i can survive and i´m expecting a really bad time in front of me...a really bad one.
I might shave my head but i´m not that built which wouldn´t look too good, and hanging around places like an airport and an university makes me want to go inside an hole. It would look silly, a skinny guy with a shaved head. I want to progress in the gym but the time to train and also eat is little and is halting my progress but i have to make something with my life and keep studying.
Well, sorry to put you up to this but i needed a rant.
I´m tired and i´m going to sleep.