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My hair loss started when I was 20 and a virgin.
At 22, I had sex with a friend who liked me. I didn't like her, but really wanted to lose virginity.
After that, I was single without any connections with women for ~4 years.
Also in 2015, I realized that a very beautiful friend liked me, whose beauty I for some reason did not notice. We just kissed several times... But I was so "virgin" that she lost interest in me because of my self-doubt and went to some freak, who, by the way, had 2 Norwood, lol. I was sooo sad and depressive since that failure because I even complained to her about baldness (I had 3 Norwood already), but she said that I look alright and I'm not bald. After that, I blocked her everywhere.
Then I tried HRT root with consuming duta, bica, minoxidil... It was an awful experience. It was 2017-2018 if I'm not mistaken. I had 4 Norwood (too close to 5 Norwood) at the time.
Dropped all that sh*t, shaved like Saitama and went to a psychotherapist at the end of 2019.
Sometimes I tried to use tinder, but was too scared to use my photos where my hair is awful. I thought I'm ugly so I used photos where they couldn't see my whole face and hair. But after antidepressants, I kind of accepted myself and started to use my real photos with my bald head. At the end of 2020, I started dating girls and this continued throughout 2021. Several times I had sex and a really close romantic-like fwb connection but couldn't build a relationship with anyone I liked. My feelings are always unrequited.
My self-esteem dropped again. The problem I have is not only in my hair but also in my personality and life achievements, which are few. I can't flex with my big self-esteem based on my skills/job/money/creative achievements so beautiful women are not interested in me too long. And I don't know how to fix it fast... But at the same time, I see guys like me dating hotties, so that's not the only problem... I don't know WHERE I can find these girls cuz they don't use dating services like Tinder.
I'm still in shock when I look at the new bf of the hot girl I liked in 2015... He's too ugly for her. When I look at him I understand that she really didn't care about my appearance and it makes me feel like an idiot even more.
Meh.
At 22, I had sex with a friend who liked me. I didn't like her, but really wanted to lose virginity.
After that, I was single without any connections with women for ~4 years.
Also in 2015, I realized that a very beautiful friend liked me, whose beauty I for some reason did not notice. We just kissed several times... But I was so "virgin" that she lost interest in me because of my self-doubt and went to some freak, who, by the way, had 2 Norwood, lol. I was sooo sad and depressive since that failure because I even complained to her about baldness (I had 3 Norwood already), but she said that I look alright and I'm not bald. After that, I blocked her everywhere.
Then I tried HRT root with consuming duta, bica, minoxidil... It was an awful experience. It was 2017-2018 if I'm not mistaken. I had 4 Norwood (too close to 5 Norwood) at the time.
Dropped all that sh*t, shaved like Saitama and went to a psychotherapist at the end of 2019.
Sometimes I tried to use tinder, but was too scared to use my photos where my hair is awful. I thought I'm ugly so I used photos where they couldn't see my whole face and hair. But after antidepressants, I kind of accepted myself and started to use my real photos with my bald head. At the end of 2020, I started dating girls and this continued throughout 2021. Several times I had sex and a really close romantic-like fwb connection but couldn't build a relationship with anyone I liked. My feelings are always unrequited.
My self-esteem dropped again. The problem I have is not only in my hair but also in my personality and life achievements, which are few. I can't flex with my big self-esteem based on my skills/job/money/creative achievements so beautiful women are not interested in me too long. And I don't know how to fix it fast... But at the same time, I see guys like me dating hotties, so that's not the only problem... I don't know WHERE I can find these girls cuz they don't use dating services like Tinder.
I'm still in shock when I look at the new bf of the hot girl I liked in 2015... He's too ugly for her. When I look at him I understand that she really didn't care about my appearance and it makes me feel like an idiot even more.
Meh.
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