Man..Sometimes I wonder...WHY ME?

[DesertFox]

Seriously, I many times wonder why me? Why why why? Do you sometimes also wonder why? I mean looking at my few friends, they are just so normal in every aspect. Why couldn't I have had that? Why did the worst possible genes have to get me only? Why am I the only freak in my household. Let me just list the things I have to deal with in my life

A. Losing my hair and I am only 21. Been made fun of because of it....have had all sorts of people stare at my hairline endlessly. Nothing else needed to be explained here.

B. I have Lateral Pectus Carinatum. What is this? Well this is a deformity of the chest where it protrudes outwards. I can't even be walking around without a shirt because it is so obvious. Just google image it.

C. I have both Social Anxiety and Depression. I have had this since I was 14 years old. It used to be to the point where I could not even talk to my own family without getting nervous and sweating and getting beet red. I used to think about suicide every single day and I lost all the friends I had. It has gotten better but I still suffer from both of these.

D. I have a huge head. Literally, my head is huge. Its 23.4 inches around in circumference. I am 6feet 205 lbs and it is still overwhelmingly big. I have been ridiculed in higschool for this many times, to this day it still saddening to remember those days. I can't even take pictures because I look like a complete circus freak. Tis the reason I don't have a facebook or myspace. Now that I am going bald, what kind of freaking pumpkin will I look like? I don't even have a good shape of a head. Its all flat in the back, I'll be a walking stick with a huge block of a head.

E. My legs are somewhat bowed below the knees. It is not extreme but it sure makes me want to not use shorts as often.

F. Being unattractive does not help.

G. I have a cross-bite (as in my teeth).

Sigh....

 

[mpbsux20]

Hang in there bro....A lot of times I feel the same too...I have got nothing to be happy about right now.I dont have a great deal of money,doesn't look like I will get a job that pays a decent sum of money,have been totally average so far in my academics but I keep reminding myself "Whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you stronger".

 

[superfrankie]

Now that I am going bald, what kind of freaking pumpkin will I look like? I don't even have a good shape of a head. Its all flat in the back, I'll be a walking stick with a huge block of a head.

You can always check out slybaldguys.com and be told differently :innocent:


Life is not fair. We all get different cards to deal with.

 

[Hope4hairRedux]

No, I never really wondered why me as such.

Well, I thought, f*** this is unfair..But everyone has their own version of 'unfair'.

You just have to play the cards you have been dealt with.

Either become strong or crumble, its your life and your choice.

As Victor Frankl said;

'“We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms -- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way.â€￾

 

[Happy as Larry]

Hey, I think I know just how you feel. I'm receding and thinning at the age of 22, on fincar but not sure if it's working. I'm a scrawny, pale guy and have a weird shaped head (know you guys hear that alot, but I once shaved my head and everyone pointed out this strange boney growth on the back of my skull. One of my "friends" even drew a picture of me looking like the alien from the ridley scott movie).

Also, I have the converse of pectus carinatum - pectus excavatum (a "dent" in the chest). Luckily, mine isn't too severe and by building my pecs and abs it's less noticable, as the eye is drawn to the muscle. I feel for you though, know what it's like to feel self conscious about your chest.

Atleast though, you're quite a tall, well built guy, that can count for alot. The toughest thing about having several physical defects is the feeling of being singled out which I just can't seem to shake off. I can't help you in that respect because I share your feeling. I can only empathise.

 

[uncomfortable man]

It's the minds natural reaction when life proves contrary to your mother's encouragement that you are "special".

 

[Ian Curtis]

Well, everytime I wonder 'Why me?' I get a truthful response:
My dad has it too.

 

[Draco88]

Try not to pick at everything about yourself DesertFox. I'm 21 myself, and amongst other insecurities/issues i'm having, i can understand how you feel. I just work on not letting them all get me down.

I mean looking at my few friends, they are just so normal in every aspect.

I'm guessing you mean this in regards to their hair line..since i use to think like this about my friends, and as the years have progressed, i've discovered that they're not so 'normal' themselves. In fact, i've realised that most of them have greater issues of their own, mainly relating to their low self esteem etc..

Btw about being the only one in your family, i know what that's like..my dad still has a good head of thick hair, with some minor receding..one of his brothers is bald, his other brother is in the middle. Yet get this, his brother who is bald, well his son is a year older than me and yet he has no signs of a receding hair line, he has such a good head of thick hair, it pisses me off that i got those genes or whatever :thumbdown2:

 

[superfrankie]

It's the minds natural reaction when life proves contrary to your mother's encouragement that you are "special".

Im definitely special - in a negative way. NW5 and only 21. So yes, Im mommy´s or should I say society´s special boy? :whistle: