more confident without my dermatch!! big dilemma

mike46

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maybe its the girl that began flirting with me right before i left, or perhaps it was the relief that i wasn't hiding anything about my appearance, whatever it was, i definitely had a game-changing experience today.

Usually when i go to gym i leave my dermatch on and just shower at home.. but today i decided to take a tan at the gyms pool, not realizing that my sunscreen had completely smudged away my dermatch at my temples (only place i need it).

Before i continue, let me tell you this concealer shi% can get to your head, i constantly have a small lingering sense of anxiety throughout my day, i just had no idea how insecure it's been making me -until today.

Anyway im done at the pool and towel up, head to the locker room, when i glanced at a mirror i had a slight double take, but i kept on moving and thought to myself "what the hell, i don't know anyone here anyway, so i dont give a shi% what i look like", as i was getting dressed i repeated to myself calmly "why the hell should i give a shi$ what these guys think? (guys locker room.. & im not gay so who gives) i got dressed and left the locker room

i headed over to the protein bar rack to purchase one, there was a good-looking girl standing right there, i thought i would freak out (no, dont look at me, it's not what you think! lol) but when she glanced at me & i gave her a quick smile (a surprisingly unapologetic one which i even caught myself off-guard with) she immediately returned a nice big smile (with some solid eye contact) and she started telling me how she was starving and how they all looked so delicious and she wasn't sure which one to get.. you get the idea, after a min. or 2 we wished each other a good day and we both left.

let me pause again, girls usually don't just start talking to me, not because im ugly or weird, but i look like a bit of a tough guy and i think the way i portray that look, makes them feel slightly intimidated, so i think my receding look (plus my slight change of demeanor to compensate) had her warm up to me since she prob. subconsciously noticed a vulnerability and felt fine chatting me up. (also she did not at all seem like the type of spoiled/entitled chick who cant shutup about themselves and would talk to anyone within earshot)

i as i left the gym i decided that before i head home to fix my *uhum, situation, ill go & take care of an errand, since i have never been there before & dont know anyone there ill head straight over...

i began feeling a shift in consciousness, i felt like i was viewing things from a place higher than my head :jump: (i promise im not high right now, thats just the best way to say it) i felt like i was able to view things in a much more emotionally stable standpoint, i didnt feel trapped within my self.


to be continued.. getting late, also if anyone would be interested in seeing w/ dermatch vs. w/o pics, ill post that as well (im 19 with something of a norwood 2.5) .. good night
 

mike46

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im gonna skip the rest..

now comes the dilemma, after got back home & took a shower i reached for the dermatch...

im not going to deny, i do look better with it and i do feel better about my looks with it

BUT, i feel much more at ease AND more confident without it!

strange huh? i feel like im balking in middle of a paradigm shift, i dont know what to make of this unexpected experience, help! :lost:

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s.a.f

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:laugh: Dude you look exactly the same in both pics!!
FFS theres no way she would notice the difference. :smack:
 

Rich78

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:agree:

You think your balding !!!!

That's an insult to us that really are having issues.

Come on dude your hair is perfect and what I would kill for.
 

mike46

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thanks guys, i posted this in another section as well, and am getting my *** whooped for complaining about my hair, i really appreciate getting some perspective
 

waldo

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:laugh: Dude you look exactly the same in both pics!!
FFS theres no way she would notice the difference.

anxiety you say ? dude its way too early for that kind of stuff.
enjoy that hair and enjoy that cute chick.

you can always come back here in 5 years when your anxiety is justified ;)
 

sterling9000

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Just find the right medication to ensure you keep what you have and your golden. The difference is really looks so imperceptible that you are likely the only one that even notices.
 
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