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karankaran
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I turned 30 ~3 months back. I started losing my hair at 23. I still have most of my hair left but the bald spot on my crown has existed for the most part of these 7 years. And one may think - hey you did not go fully bald! But that never stopped people from mocking my baldness or pointing it out or telling me that rubbing nails together will grow my hair!
I have learned that there are 2 categories - one of people who have a full head of hair and 'others'. I have felt so low so many times in the last 7 years. I never thought it would happen to me. My hair was so thick - and then I learned that your genetic destiny >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> all the BS society tells you about hair growth (like cutting your hair at frequent intervals makes it grows faster!).
I used to sit in buses and used to look at people sitting in front of me who were going bald and used to think: "Ah! poor guy! Thankfully, I never have to worry about this" And guess what - just after college, I became the guy who other people look at and say "You lost your hair at a very young age!".
I have been rejected by other men (Yes, I am gay!) because I am balding. In the gay dating world, every single aspect of your physical appearance is put under a microscope - It is not just my hair but also my over-jet and cross-bite that makes me 'ugly'.
I feel so desperate at times. I wish I could do something that would make my hair grow and I can salvage most of my 30s. I once used a roller and tried to roll it from the back of my head to my crown - why? because I was so pathetic that I thought that I could transfer my genetically resistant hair cells or something to my crown and I will never have to worry about hair again! Yeah, I did this after knowing that it is a really stupid idea!
What makes all of this worse - I work in a college town and my office is in the middle of the campus - YAY! I get to see people with a full head of hair every single day. I go out and I feel conscious that I am a 30 year old balding man. And guess what - it is going to get worse!
The dreaded 30s have arrived! The finasteride may help as I am on it for the last 10 months and I plan to be on it. But who am I kidding! My 20s would never come back. It is really cruel! I just really really want a cure. I do not want to lose my 30s...
I really do not want to! But I guess that day may never come and when it arrives, it will be too late.
I have learned that there are 2 categories - one of people who have a full head of hair and 'others'. I have felt so low so many times in the last 7 years. I never thought it would happen to me. My hair was so thick - and then I learned that your genetic destiny >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> all the BS society tells you about hair growth (like cutting your hair at frequent intervals makes it grows faster!).
I used to sit in buses and used to look at people sitting in front of me who were going bald and used to think: "Ah! poor guy! Thankfully, I never have to worry about this" And guess what - just after college, I became the guy who other people look at and say "You lost your hair at a very young age!".
I have been rejected by other men (Yes, I am gay!) because I am balding. In the gay dating world, every single aspect of your physical appearance is put under a microscope - It is not just my hair but also my over-jet and cross-bite that makes me 'ugly'.
I feel so desperate at times. I wish I could do something that would make my hair grow and I can salvage most of my 30s. I once used a roller and tried to roll it from the back of my head to my crown - why? because I was so pathetic that I thought that I could transfer my genetically resistant hair cells or something to my crown and I will never have to worry about hair again! Yeah, I did this after knowing that it is a really stupid idea!
What makes all of this worse - I work in a college town and my office is in the middle of the campus - YAY! I get to see people with a full head of hair every single day. I go out and I feel conscious that I am a 30 year old balding man. And guess what - it is going to get worse!
The dreaded 30s have arrived! The finasteride may help as I am on it for the last 10 months and I plan to be on it. But who am I kidding! My 20s would never come back. It is really cruel! I just really really want a cure. I do not want to lose my 30s...
I really do not want to! But I guess that day may never come and when it arrives, it will be too late.
