My Apology (this 7 Word Limit Is Just Insane)

[karankaran]

Hi,

A few days back, I used profanity to describe some of you. I am sorry. I may have caused hurt and I cannot bear the thought of someone feeling hurt because of me.

I have been angry because I felt under attack. But I also know that I have anger issues. They stem from my insecurities and emotional baggage. I have been helpless in the past against those who have bullied me for being effeminate. I remember that in my first year of college, my bullies used to come to my room and they used to wait for me and when I used to come back, they used to bully me for hours - saying that I am not a real man and I am 'gay' (used in a pejorative manner) and many other things. This continued for a year.

Such experiences, along with several other issues, have created a torrent of anger inside me. It just needs a small spark to be unleashed.

Once again, sorry if I caused hurt here. I am going to remain away from this site as it is not healthy for me to hang out here.

I am very lonely. So I used to come here to feel less alone.

But I cannot get along well with people so the problem must be with me.

Anyways, that is all. Bye!

 

[blackg]

I haven't really followed your trials on here but I can relate to being lonely and not having anyone who really understands you.

Take care.

 

[Medina]

Hope you reach a better place soon Karankaran and put the past behind you.

 

[JohnsonDDG]

Some of them did treat you poorly and were fixated on your sexuality.

I've no idea why they did this.

 

[HankPentagon]

I have anger issues myself

Its a thin line between letting it build up and uncorking it

 

[CaptainForehead]

. I have been helpless in the past against those who have bullied me for being effeminate. I remember that in my first year of college, my bullies used to come to my room and they used to wait for me and when I used to come back, they used to bully me for hours - saying that I am not a real man and I am 'gay' (used in a pejorative manner) and many other things. This continued for a year.

Indian men bullying someone for being effeminate.

(it's ok guys, I'm south asian).


Karen, you have a lot of anger bottled up inside and no escape valve.
Take some boxing lessons and then just wail on a punching bag. It helps.

And in no case get married and take it out on the wife and kids. Please.

 

[Exodus2011]

i hope you come back dude i appreciated you!

good on you for admitting your faults!