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my life is going bad. i dont get it together. i will fail two tests this semester at university because i didnt learn enough. just one i have the chance to pass.
then my mother. she always shouts at me and says everything i do wrong. in her view i do everything wrong. and she tells me that so often that i already believe it myself.
today i wanted to check my thyroid because maybe my hairloss comes from that. okay, but like always i stayed awake until 5 or 6 o clock in the morning and didnt wake up when i had to go to the doctor.
i dont go to university because of my hairloss. but not coz of the hairloss itself but coz i use concealors. and my dad, my mom and my psychologist all tell me that it looks like sh*t. so i only go out in the night to disco where you dont see it.
i wanna do transplants, but im not even sure if i should do that. and i somehow feel that im too childish to make such a decicion.
and whats worthst , i smoke again. i didnt smoke for 2 1/2 weaks and now i started again. f***.
and i dont clean my room. i got chaos everywhere and its not just clean. damn.
i have so high goals. i wanna once get 30 million € or $.
but how the f*****g hell shall i get that? if dont even get the basics.
everything i wanna do to get this money i havent really started with yet. actually im in debt.
though, i have to add, under all the problems i have , i am happy somehow. i dont understand it though.
then my mother. she always shouts at me and says everything i do wrong. in her view i do everything wrong. and she tells me that so often that i already believe it myself.
today i wanted to check my thyroid because maybe my hairloss comes from that. okay, but like always i stayed awake until 5 or 6 o clock in the morning and didnt wake up when i had to go to the doctor.
i dont go to university because of my hairloss. but not coz of the hairloss itself but coz i use concealors. and my dad, my mom and my psychologist all tell me that it looks like sh*t. so i only go out in the night to disco where you dont see it.
i wanna do transplants, but im not even sure if i should do that. and i somehow feel that im too childish to make such a decicion.
and whats worthst , i smoke again. i didnt smoke for 2 1/2 weaks and now i started again. f***.
and i dont clean my room. i got chaos everywhere and its not just clean. damn.
i have so high goals. i wanna once get 30 million € or $.
but how the f*****g hell shall i get that? if dont even get the basics.
everything i wanna do to get this money i havent really started with yet. actually im in debt.
though, i have to add, under all the problems i have , i am happy somehow. i dont understand it though.