Taking Pictures Of My Hair Tonight Is Depressing

[Baldingat188]

its Friday night and I'm sitting around taking pictures of my hair ... I honestly can't believe that hairloss is happening to me. Whenever I look at the pics I just want to kill myself because the way I see it there is no life worth living as a bald version of myself. The only reason I still go about my daily life and don't completely shut down are because I cope by thinking that finasteride will save me ( or if not I will switch to duta) or that a cure will come out. But that's really it , I am afraid once I am bald I won't be able to function in society.

I don't think My suicidal thoughts are even anything that I can fix. Most of the problems I struggle with are genetic curses ( baldness being the biggest one) . I envy people who are depressed due to breakups , or other random issues. I have many flaws and I believe over time I could accept some, but I will never able to accept this curse. I would love to be good looking more then anything . But at least if I don't get to be good looking I would like to at least look normal and unforantley due to hairloss ( having a weird head shape , face that doesn't suit baldness) I can't look normal like that.

Hairloss is such a surreal thing ( in a bad way) for a young person to have. I just can't believe it's happening it is the worst thing. Latley I have been obsessing about it which is why I am posting this. Some days I just cope by putting on a hat and telling myself a cure is coming , but I'm really gonna end up killing myself over this. I keep having a image in my head of me in the future , completely bald and putting a gun to my head. And obviously I feel a lot of shame about this so I can't say anything about this to people in real life...

 

[CopeForLife]

pm me them I will evaluate

 

[countjulian]

I know the feeling, I've done that many a time. Keep your head up, either you'll stop it with treatments or you won't, and once it's gone you won't have to think about it anymore. Try to go for a run or do something physical if you can.

 

[CopeForLife]

I know the feeling, I've done that many a time. Keep your head up, either you'll stop it with treatments or you won't, and once it's gone you won't have to think about it anymore. Try to go for a run or do something physical if you can.

his face won't suit balding AT ALL

also he is a manlet if I recall correctly

 

[countjulian]

My face doesn't suit balding either bro, you just gotta roll with it and focus on parts of your life that you can improve.

 

[CopeForLife]

you just gotta roll with it and focus on parts of your life that you can improve.

You're late with this advice I've adopted one from a guy who was sipping a coffee and told me "Just own this sh*t".

 

[Baldingat188]

his face won't suit balding AT ALL

also he is a manlet if I recall correctly

Pretty much

So that leaves - hair piece or suicide

 

[countjulian]

Pretty much

So that leaves - hair piece or suicide

or building an identity that's not focused totally on how you look?

 

[myusernamenow]

How bald are you my dude. Gonna need more info before I hand you my pity.

 

[Baldingat188]

or building an identity that's not focused totally on how you look?

I wish but unfortunately that's not possible for me. First, I am young and everything youth wise deals with looks. Secondally I have always been obsessed with my hair even before hairloss!! Ever since 10 years old I would not go outside if I got a bad haircut. It's possible I have some kind of OCD about it but to me appearance is most of what makes up identity , and I just can't stand to live life as a disturbingly ugly person. And that's not BDD talking , that is really what I will be .

 

[CopeForLife]

I wish but unfortunately that's not possible for me. First, I am young and everything youth wise deals with looks. Secondally I have always been obsessed with my hair even before hairloss!! Ever since 10 years old I would not go outside if I got a bad haircut. It's possible I have some kind of OCD about it but to me appearance is most of what makes up identity , and I just can't stand to live life as a disturbingly ugly person. And that's not BDD talking , that is really what I will be .

JUST switch your OCD on something else! don't build your life on hair!!

 

[Patrick_Bateman]

Being heartbroken by a failed relationship is a privilege. In my recent years my emotions have flatlined, I don't cry and I never feel happy. I'm in a constant state of indifference.

I never thought being heartbroken would be something I would wish for, but now I'd do anything to experience the highs and lows of love.

 

[Baldingat188]

How bald are you my dude. Gonna need more info before I hand you my pity.

Not asking for pity, just want to be able to talk to people or relate to someone considering this is about the only place on earth I can do so. I'm diffuse thinning in a nw5 or 6 pattern I would say. I cover it up pretty well with combovers or hats and it is not noticeable to most people yet ( unless wind blows or wet hair)

 

[countjulian]

Not asking for pity, just want to be able to talk to people or relate to someone considering this is about the only place on earth I can do so. I'm diffuse thinning in a nw5 or 6 pattern I would say. I cover it up pretty well with combovers or hats and it is not noticeable to most people yet ( unless wind blows or wet hair)

That f*****g sucks bro. Whatever happens, I hope you come to accept yourself. For what it's worth, you're a good guy, and no, you don't deserve this, nobody does, and it certainly is not fair.

 

[myusernamenow]

Not asking for pity, just want to be able to talk to people or relate to someone considering this is about the only place on earth I can do so. I'm diffuse thinning in a nw5 or 6 pattern I would say. I cover it up pretty well with combovers or hats and it is not noticeable to most people yet ( unless wind blows or wet hair)

I am uglier than you, especially when I shave my head, which I've done for years. It is not easy, it is not pretty, but hair loss is not as bad as you are making it out to be. You are not doomed to be ugly/disfigured if you're bald, but you will need to alter other aspects of your appearance, it is a big deal.

Additionally, why not let the meds do their job and get a transplant when the time comes? Many people here fight hair loss effectively. Follow their lead, do what you can, and stop torturing yourself. I am not trying to sugarcoat anything for you.

 

[CopeForLife]

Being heartbroken by a failed relationship is a privilege. In my recent years my emotions have flatlined, I don't cry and I never feel happy. I'm in a constant state of indifference.

I never thought being heartbroken would be something I would wish for, but now I'd do anything to experience the highs and lows of love.

Same.

A few months ago I played online poker tournament long story short I went deep and lost a few crucial pots in a row where I had an advantage (chances were like 95/5 percents in total). I was so close to $10k. But even this didn't induce emotions, I just smoke a cigarette and went sleep.

 

[CopeForLife]

I am uglier than you, especially when I shave my head, which I've done for years. It is not easy, it is not pretty, but hair loss is not as bad as you are making it out to be. You are not doomed to be ugly/disfigured if you're bald, but you will need to alter other aspects of your appearance, it is a big deal.

Additionally, why not let the meds do their job and get a transplant when the time comes? Many people here fight hair loss effectively. Follow their lead, do what you can, and stop torturing yourself. I am not trying to sugarcoat anything for you.

how can you know that you're uglier if you didn't see his photo? I saw and can assure anyone that balding will ruin him like nothing else. Even being 20cm shorter is less devastating.

 

[myusernamenow]

how can you know that you're uglier if you didn't see his photo?

Valid point.

 

[Baldingat188]

how can you know that you're uglier if you didn't see his photo? I saw and can assure anyone that balding will ruin him like nothing else. Even being 20cm shorter is less devastating.

so depressing but at least you understand why I worry about balding so much. If I mention to a therapist that balding will ruin me they will brush it off and tell me im being unrealistic.

Its either hair piece ( if I can cope with that) or death pretty much.

I don't have good facial features at all but hair allows me to look ok enough because I have a young looking face

 

[CopeForLife]

so depressing but at least you understand why I worry about balding so much. If I mention to a therapist that balding will ruin me they will brush it off and tell me im being unrealistic.

Its either hair piece ( if I can cope with that) or death pretty much.

I don't have good facial features at all but hair allows me to look ok enough because I have a young looking face

you have same face pattern as kit harington from game of thrones

remove hair = death