Hi, this is going to be a long post as i will write about this thing that is ruining my life. When i look back i can see that i started balding around 19 years old but didn't really notice it until 21-22. I am currently norwood 2 with diffuse thinning all over the scalp, it looks bad and i can't really style my hair cause it's going to look cringe. I've been using minoxidil for a year and a half, and while it really showed nice results after about a half a year in, things have started to go south last couple of months. And i can't and won't use finasteride. I don't want something that can affect my erection and i am on college so i have to pay a certain amount of money for minoxidil and if i had to pay finasteride aswell i might have to be homeless.
Now about the impact, it's terrifying, i could write a book about it, how much it affects me. First, i think about it every time i look in the mirror, i don't even look at other parts of my face, i just look at my hair and think how bad it looks and how unlucky i am. I look around and see guys my age have such a thick and nice hair they can style and make it look awesome, while mine looks like i borrowed it from a 50 year old guy. That's also one of the problems, i've started checking out men, not really men as a whole, but their hair and when i see an old guy with hair better than mine it makes me even more sad, i am so insecure because of it, i have a complex about my hair.
It changed my life in a way a person without male pattern baldness just can't understand and comprehend, i talked with my mother and a couple of my friends about it and they just don't understand why is that such a big deal and the argument is always there are actors and stars who are bald and they look good, smh. It makes me angry that i suffer from this crap at my age, at 23, my early 20s, age where i am supposed to be at my physical peak, where people style their hair whichever way they want because they are young and everything is fine.
I didn't believe in God but i started because of bad things that have recently happened in my life. I was always happy about my looks, i loved to style my hair, especially comb it to the side, because i have a pretty face that is kind of childish but cute, imagine that without hair, i can't even think about it without sweating. And that's not everything. I always loved sports, that's my passion and the thing i really love and guess what happened, i blew up the ligaments in my knee playing football and now i don't even know if i will be able to play such sports again, atleast not like before. I've always had pretty blue eyes, but about a year ago i went to doctor because they were bothering me and were red and doctor found out that i have a disease of dry eyes, i have to use eye drops every day. Can you imagine a life like that, at 23, i mean, my genes are like when someone hit the lottery with genes i hit the opposite, my dad had afro hair during his youth and now, in his 50's, he started balding, but that's so minor that he is probably going to have his hair till the end of his life. I realized that i am so insecure and have really low self condifence and opinion of myself. I genuinly don't care about anybody that much except for my family, and i know my family loves me, i was thinking if they weren't here, if they died in a car crash for example i wouldn't care if i was dead or alive.
I've always loved to flirt, i really love girls, love playing these games, i have a good sense of humour, people told me i am charming, but since i've started balding nothing else is important, i am just too insecure to score a girl, and to be honest, i stopped caring because i don't want to put some girl through a man that is balding in his 20s. It may sound shallow, but i would never date a fat girl, looks are important even though people try to decrease it's importance.
I don't even know what's next for me, i will keep using minoxidil and slowly balding with it even though it looks like it is using it's impact and i don't know how will i cope with it eventually. Really don't know.
Now about the impact, it's terrifying, i could write a book about it, how much it affects me. First, i think about it every time i look in the mirror, i don't even look at other parts of my face, i just look at my hair and think how bad it looks and how unlucky i am. I look around and see guys my age have such a thick and nice hair they can style and make it look awesome, while mine looks like i borrowed it from a 50 year old guy. That's also one of the problems, i've started checking out men, not really men as a whole, but their hair and when i see an old guy with hair better than mine it makes me even more sad, i am so insecure because of it, i have a complex about my hair.
It changed my life in a way a person without male pattern baldness just can't understand and comprehend, i talked with my mother and a couple of my friends about it and they just don't understand why is that such a big deal and the argument is always there are actors and stars who are bald and they look good, smh. It makes me angry that i suffer from this crap at my age, at 23, my early 20s, age where i am supposed to be at my physical peak, where people style their hair whichever way they want because they are young and everything is fine.
I didn't believe in God but i started because of bad things that have recently happened in my life. I was always happy about my looks, i loved to style my hair, especially comb it to the side, because i have a pretty face that is kind of childish but cute, imagine that without hair, i can't even think about it without sweating. And that's not everything. I always loved sports, that's my passion and the thing i really love and guess what happened, i blew up the ligaments in my knee playing football and now i don't even know if i will be able to play such sports again, atleast not like before. I've always had pretty blue eyes, but about a year ago i went to doctor because they were bothering me and were red and doctor found out that i have a disease of dry eyes, i have to use eye drops every day. Can you imagine a life like that, at 23, i mean, my genes are like when someone hit the lottery with genes i hit the opposite, my dad had afro hair during his youth and now, in his 50's, he started balding, but that's so minor that he is probably going to have his hair till the end of his life. I realized that i am so insecure and have really low self condifence and opinion of myself. I genuinly don't care about anybody that much except for my family, and i know my family loves me, i was thinking if they weren't here, if they died in a car crash for example i wouldn't care if i was dead or alive.
I've always loved to flirt, i really love girls, love playing these games, i have a good sense of humour, people told me i am charming, but since i've started balding nothing else is important, i am just too insecure to score a girl, and to be honest, i stopped caring because i don't want to put some girl through a man that is balding in his 20s. It may sound shallow, but i would never date a fat girl, looks are important even though people try to decrease it's importance.
I don't even know what's next for me, i will keep using minoxidil and slowly balding with it even though it looks like it is using it's impact and i don't know how will i cope with it eventually. Really don't know.
