So here's my rant:
I had a f*****g transplant in January. I should be done with this sh*t. I used finasteride off and on for a few years now and everytime the sides would scare me off of it. I was on it a few months after the transplant but decided it might be nice to actually feel like a man again. I was gaining weight, half-*** erections, chest fat. probably brain fog because I have been feeling really stupid. I got off the finasteride a couple months ago and I have slowly been coming back to normal. More lean sinewy muscle, more morning wood and midnight wood (still no pussy) and I was feeling thinner. Then Bam! That effing itch returned. The same itch that seized me when I was 20yrs old, foreshadowing the hair loss that would torment me for 10 goddamn years. The needle prick, spider crawl of the Dht sizzling on my hair follicles. There I am, with a hard-on and my scalp on fire, and I caved in and got my finasteride filled and popped a pill around lunch. I makes me want to cry that I can't take this stuff without losing my masculinity. Im so jealous of the guys who don't have sides. Now here I am typing in my room with a shriveling member and a soothed scalp. What the f*** happened? This is bullshit. I don't know what to do. Why the hell does canada have access to topical finasteride and not the US? SO my choice is: Take this feminizing med to maintain my hair, accentuate the 12 000$ transplant, and not have to feel like I'm going crazy with the itch and inflammation, gain weight, not feel like a man, or use bullshit TGel or Head and Shoulders, have a hardon and a decent looking body, and suffer under the weight of the dry desert my scalp will turn into. I wish in a way I didn't have the hair transplant so I could just shave my head. But noooo. Now I have a scar from ear to ear, smiling at the people behind me. What do I do? I'm scared I'm going to crash my endocrine system by going on and off finasteride so many times. I'm scared of losing more hair. But above all, I'm scared of that goddamn itch
I had a f*****g transplant in January. I should be done with this sh*t. I used finasteride off and on for a few years now and everytime the sides would scare me off of it. I was on it a few months after the transplant but decided it might be nice to actually feel like a man again. I was gaining weight, half-*** erections, chest fat. probably brain fog because I have been feeling really stupid. I got off the finasteride a couple months ago and I have slowly been coming back to normal. More lean sinewy muscle, more morning wood and midnight wood (still no pussy) and I was feeling thinner. Then Bam! That effing itch returned. The same itch that seized me when I was 20yrs old, foreshadowing the hair loss that would torment me for 10 goddamn years. The needle prick, spider crawl of the Dht sizzling on my hair follicles. There I am, with a hard-on and my scalp on fire, and I caved in and got my finasteride filled and popped a pill around lunch. I makes me want to cry that I can't take this stuff without losing my masculinity. Im so jealous of the guys who don't have sides. Now here I am typing in my room with a shriveling member and a soothed scalp. What the f*** happened? This is bullshit. I don't know what to do. Why the hell does canada have access to topical finasteride and not the US? SO my choice is: Take this feminizing med to maintain my hair, accentuate the 12 000$ transplant, and not have to feel like I'm going crazy with the itch and inflammation, gain weight, not feel like a man, or use bullshit TGel or Head and Shoulders, have a hardon and a decent looking body, and suffer under the weight of the dry desert my scalp will turn into. I wish in a way I didn't have the hair transplant so I could just shave my head. But noooo. Now I have a scar from ear to ear, smiling at the people behind me. What do I do? I'm scared I'm going to crash my endocrine system by going on and off finasteride so many times. I'm scared of losing more hair. But above all, I'm scared of that goddamn itch