I'm nearly 22. Lately I've been thinking a lot about how I have really messed up the last four years of my life.
I finished high school at 18 but I kind of screwed up my final year and I didn't get enough points to go to a college I wanted, partly because I was too lazy to put in the work but mainly because I assumed I was so intelligent that I didn't need to study. So I repeated the year, but again I screwed it up. This was the year my hair loss began and I stopped going in because I was so ashamed of my appearance. I was 19 when I finished.
So I enrolled in a community college to do a 4 year business degree. The first year was pretty easy, which I finished aged 20. But I failed EVERY exam in the 2nd year - I hardly went in and I underestimated the level of the exams.
I was faced with the options of dropping out, repeating 2nd year or getting a job and repeating the 2nd year exams in 9 months.
So I dropped out and got a job with the intention of repeating my 2nd year exams in a few months time.
Lately, I've had a lot of regrets about how I fucked up so many opportunities people have given me. If I could go back to when I was 18 I would study my *** off. It really tears me up inside seeing all my friends in their final years in college, only a few months away from being qualified engineers, lawyers etc. Then theres me I have a cert in Business from a community college, working a job I hate. The only reason I haven't quit is because the money is pretty good as far as unqualified jobs go.
I don't know if I am looking for advice or just somewhere to let off some pent up emotions.
I finished high school at 18 but I kind of screwed up my final year and I didn't get enough points to go to a college I wanted, partly because I was too lazy to put in the work but mainly because I assumed I was so intelligent that I didn't need to study. So I repeated the year, but again I screwed it up. This was the year my hair loss began and I stopped going in because I was so ashamed of my appearance. I was 19 when I finished.
So I enrolled in a community college to do a 4 year business degree. The first year was pretty easy, which I finished aged 20. But I failed EVERY exam in the 2nd year - I hardly went in and I underestimated the level of the exams.
I was faced with the options of dropping out, repeating 2nd year or getting a job and repeating the 2nd year exams in 9 months.
So I dropped out and got a job with the intention of repeating my 2nd year exams in a few months time.
Lately, I've had a lot of regrets about how I fucked up so many opportunities people have given me. If I could go back to when I was 18 I would study my *** off. It really tears me up inside seeing all my friends in their final years in college, only a few months away from being qualified engineers, lawyers etc. Then theres me I have a cert in Business from a community college, working a job I hate. The only reason I haven't quit is because the money is pretty good as far as unqualified jobs go.
I don't know if I am looking for advice or just somewhere to let off some pent up emotions.