toppik (or hair so real)
i've been using hair so real (cheaper form of toppik) for two years, and i wouldn't leave the house without it. but i hate it. i hate everything about it. i hate that the dust gets everywhere in my bathroom, on my pillow, on my hands, on my forehead, in my nose (i use a mask to put it on now, it can't be good to inhale that stuff, even if it IS non-toxic). i hate cleaning my bathroom constantly so that people who come over don't know or wonder what all the dust is--and if you don't clean it up often, it mixes w/the hairspray dust and is impossible to get off.
i hate having to worry all the time if it has rubbed off or if i have patches of scalp showing. i hate having to worry if it is all over my face or hands. i hate having to worry if it is falling all over my desk, or on someone else's couch or pillow. i hate having to put it in and make sure it is not showing in my part, and using so much hairspray to keep it in place.
actually, i pretty much hate my life right now. i'm 28 and things have been going on this way for almost 10 years, and it just keeps getting thinner and thinner. i am always thinking about it, worrying about it, watching other people's hairlines jealously.
my friends say they can't even tell with the hair so real/toppik on (i have dark brown hair, luckily). i'm glad that people on the street aren't staring at me thinking about what a shame it is, blah blah blah. but inside, i am completely miserable.
so i don't know what to do. as i said, without it i wouldn't leave the house. i don't know what i'm going to do when i can't use it anymore b/c i don't have enough hair left to look good with the powder.
it is a good product, but a curse nonetheless.
i am still trying to figure how how i am supposed to go through the rest of my life not in complete misery.