Lightofyoursmile
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Hi there. I'm now 22 years old and i've been suffering from hair loss since my 16 years old...quite premature...the process has been slowly, although i recently figured out that all the medical advices i received so far were the less apropriate, based only in vitamins and "trichology treatments" that didn't stop the problem, but cost a lot...
I've always been a dreamer...and secretly gay... I discovered that, on my 13th birthday, when i started developing feelings for a friend that was studying with me in my class, feelings that i soon learned they were love. I've never told him what i felt beause i was too young and full with fears. But he was the most kind person with me and when we split apart to different schools, in my innocence and faithful dreams i sweared that when i would be a grown-up i would find him again and destiny would make us be together.
But destiny wanted a different path for me. I really was a beautiful child at time, shy but happy... But when at my 16's my hair started to fall down, things seemed to be lost, except my wait, my wait for him. The hair loss continued each time getting worse and i didn't want the World to know the suffer i was passing by, wich only took everything harder to contain. Then, i culminated in a sad faced boy...i cried every night and every lonely moment, praying for God to reverse my problem, becoming centered in praticing good-actions so God could attend my request...but nothing happened...only my dream for my love kept me alive...
Then the destiny seemed to play with me once more... Suddendly a friend of mine had news of the boy whom i was secret in love, and i got his contact. We traded messages by telemobile and one day he wanted to see me. And i couldn't...because of my self-image... I didn't want him to see me like that, i knew he would reject me or make commentaries about myself so i couldn't confront the possibility of having my dream broken. So time went by and we continued only sharing messages from long to long time. There were several times when he asked me to see him but i just couldn't and so i lied with simple excuses all the time... My days of teenager were days of hell...and they were to be supposedly (like everyone says) the best days of my life. My silent depression went on and all i really wanted was to die... Faith is always the last to die and so it happened that way, life goes on and on and so i've reached my 22 years old. I'm not the smiley-boy i used to be and i have a extense hair loss now. I've also discovered a weeks ago that my one true love, whom i've been loving secretly all these years is not what i thought he was and decidly he isn't the one meant for me...love is blind, that's all i have to say, and happy endings are rare unfortunately.
But here's one thing i've decided, no matter what will come, one thing i'm starting to built, my future and i want it to be happy. I've started 3 months ago a treatment with Finasteride 1mg, Nizoral, Minoxidil 5% and Nourkrin Extra Strenght. I'm decided to get a major part of my hair back. I know that's seem a little difficult to achieve, but today that's hope and that's what counts. Someday i will smile again and have the opportunity to have the courage to meet someone and kiss the one i love for the very first time.
I don't know what i'm trying to say but i think it's that i'm asking to all of you who suffer with hair loss that don't give up, that fight for what you want, that is to be happy and have the life you think you deserve.
Good luck for all of you.
I've always been a dreamer...and secretly gay... I discovered that, on my 13th birthday, when i started developing feelings for a friend that was studying with me in my class, feelings that i soon learned they were love. I've never told him what i felt beause i was too young and full with fears. But he was the most kind person with me and when we split apart to different schools, in my innocence and faithful dreams i sweared that when i would be a grown-up i would find him again and destiny would make us be together.
But destiny wanted a different path for me. I really was a beautiful child at time, shy but happy... But when at my 16's my hair started to fall down, things seemed to be lost, except my wait, my wait for him. The hair loss continued each time getting worse and i didn't want the World to know the suffer i was passing by, wich only took everything harder to contain. Then, i culminated in a sad faced boy...i cried every night and every lonely moment, praying for God to reverse my problem, becoming centered in praticing good-actions so God could attend my request...but nothing happened...only my dream for my love kept me alive...
Then the destiny seemed to play with me once more... Suddendly a friend of mine had news of the boy whom i was secret in love, and i got his contact. We traded messages by telemobile and one day he wanted to see me. And i couldn't...because of my self-image... I didn't want him to see me like that, i knew he would reject me or make commentaries about myself so i couldn't confront the possibility of having my dream broken. So time went by and we continued only sharing messages from long to long time. There were several times when he asked me to see him but i just couldn't and so i lied with simple excuses all the time... My days of teenager were days of hell...and they were to be supposedly (like everyone says) the best days of my life. My silent depression went on and all i really wanted was to die... Faith is always the last to die and so it happened that way, life goes on and on and so i've reached my 22 years old. I'm not the smiley-boy i used to be and i have a extense hair loss now. I've also discovered a weeks ago that my one true love, whom i've been loving secretly all these years is not what i thought he was and decidly he isn't the one meant for me...love is blind, that's all i have to say, and happy endings are rare unfortunately.
But here's one thing i've decided, no matter what will come, one thing i'm starting to built, my future and i want it to be happy. I've started 3 months ago a treatment with Finasteride 1mg, Nizoral, Minoxidil 5% and Nourkrin Extra Strenght. I'm decided to get a major part of my hair back. I know that's seem a little difficult to achieve, but today that's hope and that's what counts. Someday i will smile again and have the opportunity to have the courage to meet someone and kiss the one i love for the very first time.
I don't know what i'm trying to say but i think it's that i'm asking to all of you who suffer with hair loss that don't give up, that fight for what you want, that is to be happy and have the life you think you deserve.
Good luck for all of you.
