GrowingItBack
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I've been a lurker on this site for awhile, and I thought I should finally tell my story.
I've been going bald since I was 17 ( 28 now ). Back then, I was able to conceal my hairloss with long hair and Toppik and nobody knew. Hell, when I would apply Toppik, it even fooled myself into thinking that I had hair and that the shedding I was going through would stop and regrow on it's on. I was in a constant state of denial for a few years.
I finally deceided that enough was enough and I shaved off my long locks to discover that not only did I have a weird shape head underneath the few hairs I have left, but being bald was not an option. I liked having hair, and I wanted it back.
So I started to read up on hairloss to come up with a course of action on what to do. In the meantime, I grew my hair out just a little bit so when I used Toppik, I looked like I was in the Armed Services. With less length in the hair, the Toppik was more noticable to me and probably the women I dated as well. Because of my fear of being found out, I went through a lot of quick and sudden relationships before any of them caught on. I was in constant fear of what would happen the day that their hands would get past my dodging attempts and touch my hair...only to smear the Toppik and reveal the real me. After awhile, I just stopped dating all together, became depressed, stop reading material on hair loss, and just sunk into a rut. I wore hats all the time. This went on for a few years.
Flash forward to today. I'm 28 now. I've been reading this forum for awhile and recently got myself into a good regimine. All the areas on my head that use to have no hair whatsoever have sprouted a good amount of thin hairs that I hope will turn into dark, permamant hair. It's given me a lot of hope that I'll be able to finally beat this to were I can go out with a millitary cut and not have to wear any Toppik. Nobody knows that I'm bald...but I'm sure some suspect that I am because I still wear a hat all the time.
However... after a few years of not dating, I found a girl that I really, really like. We're very compatable...we think alike, she makes me think and challenges my brain, she's beautifull, and I can feel that she likes me too. She's everything I wanted in someone and more.
But...she's never seen me without a hat, and our relationship is starting to come to a point where the hat is going to have to go to be able to be intimate with her. I'm scared about what's going to happen. I'm starting to beat back my baldness thanks to my regimine and this forum, but I've still got work to do before I can feel like I can go out in public without a hat or some sort of concealer.
So what do I do? Should I Toppik it? Should I just shave it bald? Should I just reveal myself and get over my fear and be open to her about it and confess about the gains that I've had? I'm afraid of being humiliated, when I'm close to finally overcoming what's plagued me for over 10 years now.
I've been going bald since I was 17 ( 28 now ). Back then, I was able to conceal my hairloss with long hair and Toppik and nobody knew. Hell, when I would apply Toppik, it even fooled myself into thinking that I had hair and that the shedding I was going through would stop and regrow on it's on. I was in a constant state of denial for a few years.
I finally deceided that enough was enough and I shaved off my long locks to discover that not only did I have a weird shape head underneath the few hairs I have left, but being bald was not an option. I liked having hair, and I wanted it back.
So I started to read up on hairloss to come up with a course of action on what to do. In the meantime, I grew my hair out just a little bit so when I used Toppik, I looked like I was in the Armed Services. With less length in the hair, the Toppik was more noticable to me and probably the women I dated as well. Because of my fear of being found out, I went through a lot of quick and sudden relationships before any of them caught on. I was in constant fear of what would happen the day that their hands would get past my dodging attempts and touch my hair...only to smear the Toppik and reveal the real me. After awhile, I just stopped dating all together, became depressed, stop reading material on hair loss, and just sunk into a rut. I wore hats all the time. This went on for a few years.
Flash forward to today. I'm 28 now. I've been reading this forum for awhile and recently got myself into a good regimine. All the areas on my head that use to have no hair whatsoever have sprouted a good amount of thin hairs that I hope will turn into dark, permamant hair. It's given me a lot of hope that I'll be able to finally beat this to were I can go out with a millitary cut and not have to wear any Toppik. Nobody knows that I'm bald...but I'm sure some suspect that I am because I still wear a hat all the time.
However... after a few years of not dating, I found a girl that I really, really like. We're very compatable...we think alike, she makes me think and challenges my brain, she's beautifull, and I can feel that she likes me too. She's everything I wanted in someone and more.
But...she's never seen me without a hat, and our relationship is starting to come to a point where the hat is going to have to go to be able to be intimate with her. I'm scared about what's going to happen. I'm starting to beat back my baldness thanks to my regimine and this forum, but I've still got work to do before I can feel like I can go out in public without a hat or some sort of concealer.
So what do I do? Should I Toppik it? Should I just shave it bald? Should I just reveal myself and get over my fear and be open to her about it and confess about the gains that I've had? I'm afraid of being humiliated, when I'm close to finally overcoming what's plagued me for over 10 years now.
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