f*** man, I am sorry. I can't relate, but nonetheless I am very sorry. Is it male pattern baldness? would you mind sharing pictures? Have you been to the dermatologist?
At age 13 sunday evenings were medicated shampoo days for me, when after washing, I would spend a day in seclusion waiting for my hair to get its fluff back so that my bald spots could be covered. My father didn't allow me to go in rogaine till I was 15. Legit concerns I guess. When I was 16, and on rogaine, I actually passed out one day in my room and collapsed due to low BP. Didn't tell anyone as if I did, I knew my rogaine would be taken away.
Another 15er here. NW3 by 17, then diffused to a slick NW6 within 3 years after that. Absolutely raped my self-esteem. You've got friends here Mr Bald.
Stay strong,
DBW