A Question I Have About Suicide ~ Extra Words

[Goldee Lox]

I'm not considering killing myself at the present moment.. Nor do I expect I will consider it any time soon.

I've been thinking a lot lately though.. I'm getting older (28) and I'm realizing more and more the fleeting of life. It really does go by quickly. The movie Space Jam turned 20 years old today for example and it just blew my mind that it has been that long. In my best Yoda voice.. Puts things into perspective, things like that do.

I've been thinking a lot about what it will be like to be older.. I'm talking getting into your 70's and 80's etc. Life can be a motherfucker, even at a young age and I can only imagine what it's going to be like to be an old man.

If I don't die in some sudden way, or by some disease/disorder before I get old.. I honestly believe that I will kill myself when I reach an age of helplessness. The day I know that I can no longer take care of myself, I'm going to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Seems like a great alternative to dwindling away in some nursing home that smells of feet while waiting on the people that are supposed to come visit you that never do.

This is kind of a random post.. I only post it because I'm curious if anybody else on here thinks along these lines. I don't normally think this far ahead, but seeing helpless old people depresses me. I couldn't live like that.

 

[Dench57]

I wonder what @That Guy thinks

 

[Baldingat188]

I agree with you life goes by fast, kind of ridiculous and scary at the same time. Time is our biggest enemy.

as far as getting old I wouldnt kill myself unless there was some other reason I was struggling with. I wouldnt kill myself just for the sake of getting old. Maybe I am naive but there is something I admire about older people.

 

[SmoothSailing]

If I can dwindle around a nursing home, with drugs and an internet connection, I think I'd be happy to continue on.

 

[blackg]

If I can dwindle around a nursing home, with drugs and an internet connection, I think I'd be happy to continue on.

But you would most likely be wearing adult diapers.

 

[SmoothSailing]

But you would most likely be wearing adult diapers.

That's the best part

Nah, do you ever look at old guys? They don't give a f***. They walk around changing rooms with their belly and bollocks out without a care in the world.

@Dante92 as good a reason as any. My backup plan, if everything ever went to sh*t here, is to move to iceland or somewhere remote and cold where I could live a simple, alcoholic, internet addict, life.

 

[Folliman]

This post reminded me of this case. http://martin-manley.eprci.com/home_page/release_of_rights

It's a guy who planned to commit suicide at 60 for this very reason, and he sealed the deal on his birthday... He didn't want to live to be old and let his body deteriorate. What is most disturbing is that he was an otherwise perfectly sane man who lived a good life. He left this blog explaining the reasoning behind his actions.

I've never seriously considered suicide. I want to see what life has for me even if it's just an average life.

 

[scorpiolove]

One of my friends is old(sixty something) and he has dementia and he can't clean his own house because he's partially handicapped and has osteoporosis, he still has a good life though, he smokes weed, drinks beer and listens to Bob Marley music, he owns his own house and he pays people to cut his lawn and take care of him.
He's still got his wits about him and people come to his door and beg him for money(mostly his relatives)he used to live in a retirement home so he moved above all the people that he knows in a way by buying his own home.
Getting old and wise and making a residual income is the key, that's mostly why you hear the older people say to the younger people, save you money while your young. It's good advice. Any problem the aformentioned person has he can solve with his brain and as long as your even partially competent you can still live a good life no matter what age you are, oh yeah and queen elizabeth is 90 and still living well my main point is make the most of your situation when your older stay paid and as competent as possible.

 

[Folliman]

I've seen that movie. I would love to watch it again but with a NW7 as the main guy. I bet women's reaction would've been a lot different. See how they like a bitter bald guy instead of a bitter NW1.

 

[Folliman]

Although to be fair the girl is cute too. But it still shows that women care about looks as much as men despite how much they proudly claim otherwise.


edit: Also her boyfriend was slightly receding...

 

[Marky]

I watched the movie Me Before You the other day.

Basically a rich fullhead who's like living the best life ever before having an accident that results in him being paralyzed from the neck down.

Instead of trying to cope with like the vast majority of paralyzed people manage to do, he starts moping around and drives everyone away from him.

He's still filthy rich, has parents and people who love him and care for him, has Khaleesi jumping on his c*** for no reason. Seriously, he had a bland personality and he was a dick the whole movie, but hey, he's still a good-looking fullhead after all! 10/10 for realism on that aspect.

The novel seems to have been written by a woman who has no idea about how paralyzed people cope. Studies have shown that they can actually regain the same level of happiness that they were used to before their accident. What's shown in this movie is actually how disfigured people cope, studies have shown that they will never be as happy as they were prior to their disfigurement (I'm sure you all understand why I mention this).

Anyway, the guy is still living a pretty epic life for a disabled person. Their parents can afford to pay him a girl who just talks to him (and eventually jumps on his c***), he gets taken on a trip in an exotic location.

In the end, what does he do (sorry for the spoiler)? He wants to be euthanized. Filthy rich good-looking fullhead who can live the best 'handicapped life' possible just can't take it!

What a great message it sends to our generation:

"Hey you're going through some difficult times? Don't worry, you can't just kill yourself!" Of course I know it must be hard not to be able to move around. But still, disfigurement (like hair loss) is even harder psychologically (not my opinion, studies support this), and a lot of us are still around, aren't we?

I can't believe how the girls ate up the BS they saw in that movie. "It's so romantic! He didn't want to be a burden for Khaleesi so he killed himself and gave her money so she could f*** able-bodied good-looking guys around the world!"

Maybe this is what most girls hope for, instead of facing challenges with their boyfriend, that he could just kill himself and spare her the additional stress.

Yep, maybe in the ole days people stuck it out through good times and bad, as was exchanged in their marriage vows. But today? I know a guy married for 10 years, had 2 kids, then came down with fibromyalgia and now on disability for the rest of his life. It wasn't long before the wife said 'this isn't what I signed up for' - took custody of the kids and moved back to where she grew up.

Sad sad but that's the risk associated with marriage today, and the general uncertainties of life, like a box of chocolates you never know what you're going to get.

 

[Marky]

I'm not considering killing myself at the present moment.. Nor do I expect I will consider it any time soon.

I've been thinking a lot lately though.. I'm getting older (28) and I'm realizing more and more the fleeting of life. It really does go by quickly. The movie Space Jam turned 20 years old today for example and it just blew my mind that it has been that long. In my best Yoda voice.. Puts things into perspective, things like that do.

I've been thinking a lot about what it will be like to be older.. I'm talking getting into your 70's and 80's etc. Life can be a motherfucker, even at a young age and I can only imagine what it's going to be like to be an old man.

If I don't die in some sudden way, or by some disease/disorder before I get old.. I honestly believe that I will kill myself when I reach an age of helplessness. The day I know that I can no longer take care of myself, I'm going to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Seems like a great alternative to dwindling away in some nursing home that smells of feet while waiting on the people that are supposed to come visit you that never do.

This is kind of a random post.. I only post it because I'm curious if anybody else on here thinks along these lines. I don't normally think this far ahead, but seeing helpless old people depresses me. I couldn't live like that.

Thats where the world gets it wrong. Ya the senior citizen years you are facing suffering not only physical but social isolation too. That's what kids are kinda for if you have them, so you're not too lonely and there is off spring to help you out where needed - at least ideally.

The suffering is a form of penance, from the Catholic perspective, as we're all sinners. Better to pay a bit of it off in this life time than the next. When someone ends their life prematurely they they rob themselves of this opportunity.

But generally if you play your cards right the senior kidney-dialysis-diaper-wearing years can indeed be golden. Fairly good health, retirement money, grand kids etc can make these years golden.

 

[CaptainForehead]

I'm not considering killing myself at the present moment.. Nor do I expect I will consider it any time soon.

I've been thinking a lot lately though.. I'm getting older (28) and I'm realizing more and more the fleeting of life. It really does go by quickly. The movie Space Jam turned 20 years old today for example and it just blew my mind that it has been that long. In my best Yoda voice.. Puts things into perspective, things like that do.

I've been thinking a lot about what it will be like to be older.. I'm talking getting into your 70's and 80's etc. Life can be a motherfucker, even at a young age and I can only imagine what it's going to be like to be an old man.

If I don't die in some sudden way, or by some disease/disorder before I get old.. I honestly believe that I will kill myself when I reach an age of helplessness. The day I know that I can no longer take care of myself, I'm going to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Seems like a great alternative to dwindling away in some nursing home that smells of feet while waiting on the people that are supposed to come visit you that never do.

This is kind of a random post.. I only post it because I'm curious if anybody else on here thinks along these lines. I don't normally think this far ahead, but seeing helpless old people depresses me. I couldn't live like that.

I have similar thoughts.

I think if you have children things are different, but if not, there is no one to really care for you, help you in case of need. How will I live? What happens when I fall sick?

The most likely manner in which I will go is by suicide.

 

[CaptainForehead]

My backup plan is hoping to die in my sleep every night.

I find this very strange as you've said you love your job. How can you love a huge chunk of your day and still be borderline suicidal?

 

[Goldee Lox]

Because I look like a living corpse and for the inferiority complex linked to my condition (not to mention being a virgin at my age and the social pressure). I forget about it only as long as I'm at work. Then reality suddenly punches me again. I thought hobbies could help, but in the long run, they don't.

Just find you some young Asian boy on Craigslist to come suck your c*** regularly.. problem solved.

..but seriously, virg in the mid-20s has got to be brutal. I'll send some positive vibes into the atmosphere for you.

 

[Dench57]

I'm deeply touched.

 

[Dante92]

My irony would have been more evident if I had used a GIF, I know.

 

[CaptainForehead]

Because I look like a living corpse and for the inferiority complex linked to my condition (not to mention being a virgin at my age and the social pressure). I forget about it only as long as I'm at work. Then reality suddenly punches me again. I thought hobbies could help, but in the long run, they don't.

If you "f*****g love" work, then why don't you work longer hours? Make work your life? Become a workaholic.

 

[Dench57]

If you "f*****g love" work, then why don't you work longer hours? Make work your life? Become a workaholic.

and spend the extra money on a god damn transplant

 

[shookwun]

If you "f*****g love" work, then why don't you work longer hours? Make work your life? Become a workaholic.

Most people dont have this option, and luxury.

even in my line of work, they dont want to pay people for extra work. Which involves more over time..

Companies want to spend as little as possible in most cases.