myself personally im also getting really desperate and depressed. despite having done a lot of research I have found that for whatever reason(and I would be happy to hear any input), my body cannot tolerate finasteride.
i have done the experiment and have now arrived at 0.005% (the mazarella dose) but not twice, just once a day at 1.5ml. ive been doing this for a while now and its almost crazy but I still have the same side effects.
no doubt that it still goes systemic to some degree even at this dose as my semen is very watery. however, at most now I have about 10-12% DHT reduction. I am not surprised or saddened that I still have some side effects, I am at a point where I think some trade off just need to be made if you dont want to be NW6 in your twenties and I really dont want that.
however what has stressed me out a lot is that for whatever reason, the intensity of the sides has not changed. and they are still very severe and serious.
severe erectile dysfunction (if I had not seen a doctor who did an ultrasound I would think I have severe penile fibrosis at this point because of the extent of the ED). I cant have an erection that lasts for longer than a few seconds. libido is absent but this I find is a consequence of the bad erectile function as Cialis recovers the libido(which it doesnt do by its own mechanism) but I find the poor erections bring down my libido.
so now I am really wondering what is going on? not just why do I still have these sides but rather, why is there not an improvement compared to less DHT inhibition and estrogen increase?
- oral finasteride completely wrecked me, estrogen increased by 110%(literally doubled), free T halved(-50%), DHT was in the ground at 10ng/dL (normal range 25-60)
- now on topical finasteride my estrogen is only increased by 15%, free T is the same, total T is the same, DHT is reduced by 16% and is now TWICE as high, 100% increase in DHT compared to oral finasteride.
however, the extent and severity of the sexual side effects are still the exact same. they aren't milder or anything, I still have severe erectile dysfunction.
i dont understand the world anymore. Dr Wrassman who prescribed me the liposomal said nobody in the past 3 years out of 250 people that came to him (most who couldn't tolerate oral finasteride) has had such sides. but they are very real.
I feel like I cant close this chapter without at least having an idea what might be going on in my body. like, its so confusing to me how my body can be so reliant on DHT and yet, a 100% increase does not produce a meaningful change. it just makes no sense on a medical level?
cant really stop finasteride either as it still works at this dose and the actual reason, there is nothing else in 2023 that could make sense. getting off of finasteride means being NW6 at 30 and for some reason I think ill regret letting that happen.
does anyone here have an idea what might be going on?