Its a long story and I dont want to proselytize too much here, so you can PM me if you want to talk about it in detail.
Long story short. I concluded that their was a creator after reading some books. Especially
Darwins Doubt by Stephen Meyer.
Here some videos that opened my mind.
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The impossibility of Abiogenesis (Dr. James Tour is one of the top Organic Chemist in the world for reference)
Extreme Fine Tuning of the Universe and its forces and Constants
The odds of a genetic mutation making a new functional protein is 1 in 10^77. For reference their has only been 10^40 organisms that have ever existed in the world.
20 different Phyla appeared all of a sudden (Cambrian explosion was 6-10million years) in the fossil record with complete separate body plans and no transitional fossil from the late precambrian.
Darwinian evolution which works on random genetic mutation + natural selection works very very slowly. The lack of transitional fossil records and sudden appearance + the huge amount of genetic information to create new body plans makes the theory doubtful.
After reading the Quran I personally concluded it could only be the word of God and not a man or poet
"Or were they created by nothing, or were they the creators [of themselves]?"
"O people, an example is presented, so listen to it. Indeed, those you invoke besides Allah will never create [as much as] a fly, even if they gathered together for that purpose. And if the fly should steal away from them a [tiny] thing, they could not recover it from him. Weak are the pursuer and pursued."
After realizing how impossible it is to create life, I realized who ever wrote the Quran has some divine knowledge of his creations. Also theirs many other scientific description that is line with science as to how God created the Universe
Now to your question, after realizing that this life is only temporary and that the next life [Paradise] will be permanent, I honestly stopped caring about my hairloss, me being a manlet and a me being a 30 year old incel.
Everything I want in this life looks, wealth, women I will get the best of in the next life.
Theirs a hadith that says
"What is the example of this worldly life in comparison to the Hereafter other than one of you dipping his finger in the sea? Let him see what he brings forth."
Source: Sahih Muslim 2858, Grade: Sahih
I've honestly never been happier in my life.