know how you feel. I'm also in a depressed state in my life right now. I started losing my hair at 20 years old, 2nd year of college. I'm almost 25 now. I started to lose hair on my crown and on the front right side of my scalp. Then I started to lose more. It's like my scalp was being attacked. I didn't realize how much hair until my peers and family members started making comments. I was aghast when I took a hand-held mirror and saw much how hair was gone. I pretty much had a bald spot at my lowest point (about a year later). Forget the stress of school, the hair loss completely overshadowed everything else I was going through. It was so humiliating. I would go to class sometimes and no one would even sit next to me. The whole row would be empty - I would always tell myself, they just probably want to sit up closer, but I knew the real reason. I've become disillusioned with people. When I see other guys fixing their hair in front of me, sometimes I think, is he rubbing it in that I don't have as much? It makes you so self-conscious and paranoid. My brother got me on Propecia, thank God, and slowly my hair started to grow back. I was on it for 3 years and a lot of my hair did grow back. Now, I would say I've lost about 35-40% of my hair. I have to comb my hair forward now to cover my crown. I've stopped taking Propecia for about two months now as it was making me even more depressed. I had zero motivation and plus I've reached a certain threshold where I don't think it's going to do anything more for me.
I can't explain how this has devastated my life. It's poisoned everything. Everyone used to tell me how handsome I was, how cute I was (I still get compliments sometimes)
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Even though I'm in my 20's, I look 18 so this really doesn't suit my looks. I never would have guessed in a million years that something like this would happen to me. I don't know if it's a test from God, punishment for all the bad things I've done in my life, the stress of school, or what. Before, I used to feel sorry for myself, but now I just feel anger - why did this happen to me? I've become so withdrawn and isolated. I just go to work and school, and concentrate on my studies. My joy for life is gone; it's stolen my happiness. I wish I could be like other people who are going through traumatic experiences and still have a positive attitude, but honestly I just don't feel that way. I try to focus on all the good things in my life - my parents, good job, nice car, otherwise good health. Sometimes, I feel good and in control and somedays, I just feel so small. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time now. It helps to now others are going through the same thing. Thanks for letting me share my story.