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MrBald

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I was on a weddingparty yesterday. I had to wear a suit, so I also had to go without my baseball cap. Realized my hair loss is worse then ever,
I am now a nw6, I thought I was nw5. The whole evening was destroyed, all I could think about was my hair and how ****ing bad it make me look.
And today the depression is a fact. I realize now that I got to do something about my situation, or completely avoid situations where I can't wear a hat.

I got to get money to a hair transplant someway..
 

Agustin Araujo

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I understand, it's hard it really is.

I sometimes just hate my sorry thin head of hair when I see that there are many others that have it much worse. It's hard for all of us hair loss sufferers when we were born and lived the earliest times of our existence in this world being a NW1, and then losing it. It always baffles me how in some Androgenetic Alopecia sufferers, the hair will just keep coming off until the scalp is completely bald, it's beyond devastating. I can tell that it's totally difficult for anyone at any age to have extensive hair loss. I'm glad that you care, and you seem to be handling it well.
 

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I feel for you man, I completely understand your situation. I'm no where near as bad as your current state of hair loss, but I never go anywhere without a hat because I hav ea shaved head + thinning all over means I've had to shave my hair. Went to a really nice restaurant today for my uncles 60th, and I wore a beanie whilst some people there were dressed in suits such as my cousin. Made me feel so out of place and made me really sad so I'm also saving up for a hair transplant.
****ing sucks
God knows what I'll do when I reach NW5
 

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I feel for you man, I completely understand your situation. I'm no where near as bad as your current state of hair loss, but I never go anywhere without a hat because I hav ea shaved head + thinning all over means I've had to shave my hair. Went to a really nice restaurant today for my uncles 60th, and I wore a beanie whilst some people there were dressed in suits such as my cousin. Made me feel so out of place and made me really sad so I'm also saving up for a hair transplant.
****ing sucks
God knows what I'll do when I reach NW5
u wont completely understand as u arent completely bald like me and OP.

and i feel ya OP. i was feeling masochistic and it was hot as **** anyways so i went on a long walk in the bright sun with my months grown out norwood 6

it was strangely freeing although insanely depressing as ****. i caught a look at myself in the mirror and saw my starving marvin *** self with a big shiny bald head lmao

so ****ing goddamn soul destroyingly depressing i felt like i died right there on the spot.

im same boat as u op, i need to get a hair transplant. but that means getting over my fear of socializing with normal*** full heads x.x
 

MrBald

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Thanks all of you. I am glad this forum exist, its the only place where I can find people who understands this hell.

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i felt like i died right there on the spot.

Thats exactly the way I felt when I arrived at the party, and looked in the mirror that was when I came in through the door. I felt like I died inside... This can't be me, i thought. Before hairloss I actually looked really good.

And I totally understand what you are saying about getting over your fear of socializing when you´re bald. Actually baldness has been so devastating for me that I don't really function normal socially, because of the following depression. Its like an evil circle: baldness - depression - social anxiety - isolation - more depression etc..
 

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Wear a fedora.
 

MrBald

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I do understand I am only NW2 with diffuse thinningin NW5-6 pattern. However, I feel getting sucked in that hole.
I remember when I first noticed Im losing hair and I thought I would develop bald spot and NW3 hairline in like 6 months(which would mean shaving head for me), that was the first time I died inside and had depression of 4 months. This depression included the depression of understanding that I couldnt do anything about it, because finasteride didnt work for me. My life was ****ed up as it was and being the kind of good looking and the life of the party guy was the only thing I had, so yeah...
For those who accuse me of having psychological sides I can assure I felt chest pains every time I took a dose of finasteride. I was not expecting any sides.

Then I started going to the gym, understood its not going as fast as I thought and I my depression partly dissapeared, but still, thought about it all the time. Now I got injured and cant attend gym for a while. Now this is where I am depressed again.

And at NW2 I already cant look at myself in the pictures and cant believe its me, looking at pictures from 2 years ago. I cant imagine what I will do when the time to shave head will come. I just hate how baldness gradually makes a person accept that they keep getting uglier and uglier and uglier.

OP, you are a warrior, I am glad you went to that party

Well I hope that baldness doesn't get so devastating for you as it has been for me. Some people learn to cope with it and live a happy life despite it, Im not one of those! When I was like 25 I thought that I had accepted it, then I was somewhere around nw4 I think, have always been diffuse thinner though. But my hair loss escalated for about two years ago (I am 30 now) and it feels worse then ever now.. I see you are only 20 years old, thats good, maybe there is a cure when you are 30-35.
 

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I use to wear different kind of "hats", and I will continue to do it. Im so ****ing tired of having to "hide" under a hat though. It feels like I am hiding and living in a lie, trying to fool myself and others around me that Im not bald.. And I remember once, I was at a rock concert, as usual I was wearing a hat, feeling depressed and anxious, because every other ****ing men - young and old - had hair in the arena. And there came a girl dancing in front of me, and guess what she did: she took the hat off my head and put on her head, and I stood there, bald as hell and felt like I was gonna sink through the floor. If I had have hair, it would be a nice start of a conversation, but instead it became a really awkward situation.. Depressing.. The consequences of baldness in a nutshell!

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If I may ask, when did your hair loss start?

I first noticed my hair started to get really thin, when I was 14 or 15 years old. I started to lose hair in the front, as a diffuse thinner. I got really high "temples". When I think about it, it really changed everything in my life. Thats when insecurity and depression really crept upon me!

Well, maybe there is no cure in 10-15 years, but Im sure at least it will be much better treatments out!

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Awww, that ****ing sucks, I remember wearing those hipster beanies to parties or baseball caps when I was like 17 and girls always wanted to try them on and it was a good conversation starter

Hehe that has happened to me too when I was younger, and it felt awkward. But I promise you, when a girl takes your hat and your are a full blown NW6, its a different level of shame! lol!

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But yeah, all my life expectations pretty much slowly go down the sink along with my hair, I am not gonna look good bald even when my full beard kicks in

If I were you, I would start saving money for some kind of treatment now, so when your reach your 30s and your baldness start to get real bad, you can do something about it.
I wish I had done that!
 

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Norwood 6 is a whole different level of hairloss, when you can wear a hat to hide your hairloss your good for a while, but when you lose your hair at the back of your head and cant even wear a hat to disguise your hairloss, thats when hairloss really sucks!
 

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I actually like wearing hats but i can understand where you're coming from. Big difference on wearing a hat as an option and wearing one because you just want to feel normal towards others. Being a hat prisoner sucks BIG time
 

Agustin Araujo

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reading this makes me depressed as hell. I started losing my hair at 14 and before my 18th birthday had an obvious nw7 pattern and a huge bald spot on my crown. Started treatment at 19 when i was nearly bald and 6months later you can hardly tell. The fact that i am a pure diffuse thinner with a nw1 hairline helps. If you guys feel so bad about it why don't you use stronger treatments, i mean i got to the point that i was so devastated i didn't care for side effects at all and i have yet to experience any.

Starting to go bald when you're only in your teens usually means your Androgenetic Alopecia is going to be incredibly aggressive.

I started going bald when I was 16, and currently right now in my early twenty's, my male pattern baldness is in hyperdrive, it's insane. About stronger treatments, my male pattern baldness is so bad that even being on a regimen of Dutasteride and RU58841 I'm still losing hair. I've recently been starting to think for the first time that I don't think I can beat my male pattern baldness because my genetics are just too strong. I've experienced no adverse side effects from treatments.
 

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I was on a weddingparty yesterday. I had to wear a suit, so I also had to go without my baseball cap. Realized my hair loss is worse then ever,

One of the biggest problems with hair loss is being able to really complete a good look. You can wear the best clothes and be in the best shape, but without hair on your head you will always look incomplete. I went to a company Christmas party last year and spent some time getting a pretty cool outfit together. I felt like crap because although the outfit looked great, I just did not look the way I wanted to with out the hair. It was at that point that I really decided to grow my hair out. I know that my hair is unacceptable to many and I am sure most would just shave it, but at least now I feel I can pull of a better look than I did before.

My hair loss isn't as bad as the OP or Exodus, but I can sort of see where they are coming from.
 

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That is a real nice recovery. I have tossed around the idea of adding RU to my regimen, just never pulled the trigger.
 

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What the ****. What a recovery. We can look all the trials and whatnot, but the response is always individual. I am sorry to hear this Agustin. I know you had very high hopes. It could be a shed though from the Minoxidil or hair cycles? Remember as soon as you took dutasteride, you said within a month or two you felt it's power. I don't think it would wane off that quick buddy. Take pictures regularly.
 

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I can relate mrbald. I work at a groccery store and they called for someone to help a customer out with her cart. Well the woman was a young lady and when she saw me turn the corner to come help her, the look of panic in her eyes said everything. She gave me this look like she wanted to say "just nevermind" but she somehow realized that such an outright rejection would have been too brutal so she begrudgingly accepted my help... but making it as akward as possible for me by giving me this look like she just pulled the short straw. In the parking lot she tried making small talk with me to try and make it less akward or to make a late futile attempt to be friendly, but the damage was done.
 

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You really have to get yourself some kind of hidden camera and start recording this stuff. The success you would have on YouTube would be insane. You would seriously be able to quit your job.
 

Agustin Araujo

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that's really surprising to hear, I have very aggressive male pattern baldness and dutasteride and ru have completely stopped my hair loss. can you post baseline pic and recent pic? here is my baseline and six months later
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Wow! What a recovery, congratulations! How much Dutasteride do you take, do you take 0.5 mg daily? I take 0.5 mg daily of Dutasteride. And how much RU58841 daily do you use? My goal is to use a 10% concentration of the research chemical once daily. I've currently been using a 3% concentration and I think that might be too low to do a whole lot since my first order of RU58841 was only 3 grams, so I don't have a whole lot to use at the moment. My next order of RU58841 will be 20 grams.


What the ****. What a recovery. We can look all the trials and whatnot, but the response is always individual. I am sorry to hear this Agustin. I know you had very high hopes. It could be a shed though from the Minoxidil or hair cycles? Remember as soon as you took dutasteride, you said within a month or two you felt it's power. I don't think it would wane off that quick buddy. Take pictures regularly.

I'm starting to think that it has to be a shed through the Minoxidil hair cycles since I recently got back on the treatment topically. I still feel the power of Dutasteride and it's stronger than ever, I don't plan to get off it anytime soon, I've only been on it for nearly five months now and has been helping tremendously. Yes, when I first started taking Dutasteride, at the first month nothing was happening. Then at around one and a half months, hair fall started reducing a lot and inflammation as well. I then knew from there that Dutasteride was working me because my hair was starting to feel so much healthier.

About RU58841, I haven't even been on it for a month, so I cannot say anything if it's really helping or not. I plan on using a 10% concentration. Currently I've been using a 3% concentration and I've come to the conclusion that at a dose that low, it's too weak to do anything majorly helpful. My first order of RU58841 was 3 grams, so I don't have a whole lot to use at the moment. My next order of RU58841 that I plan on doing is going to be 20 grams, so I will have plenty to use. It will be then and there when I'll know how well I can combat my Male Pattern Baldness.

Thank you so much Wolf Pack for your support and sympathies. It's been a hard war for me fighting my male pattern baldness and I have grown incredibly impatient. All I can do at this point is wait and time will tell how much of my hair I can recover once I'm able to incorporate RU58841 properly into my regimen. :)
 

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After depression comes apathy. It's very hard to truly enjoy anything, happiness and the feeling of joy is very weak compared to before.
 

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u wont completely understand as u arent completely bald like me and OP.

and i feel ya OP. i was feeling masochistic and it was hot as **** anyways so i went on a long walk in the bright sun with my months grown out norwood 6

it was strangely freeing although insanely depressing as ****. i caught a look at myself in the mirror and saw my starving marvin *** self with a big shiny bald head lmao

so ****ing goddamn soul destroyingly depressing i felt like i died right there on the spot.

im same boat as u op, i need to get a hair transplant. but that means getting over my fear of socializing with normal*** full heads x.x

Officially going f to start my ex hair transplant donations this week.
Get ready
 
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