It’s demoralizing isn’t it. I wash my hair every day, will pull out 50-80 hairs in the shower alone and watch my hair just get thinner and thinner all the time. I only started on dutas and RU a few weeks back (hairloss hasn’t stopped though), but the fact that things are still getting worse all the time is enough to make any hope very small, and some days I consider suicide. I feel like my body is just broken and won’t be fixed by anything. I’m praying that the dutas/RU/pill/topical and oral minoxidil/niacinamide combo helps. I’ve been using topical cetirizine and miconazole too but will probably not continue once I run out since it doesn’t really seem to do much.
To be frank, I also am vacillating between strong emotions both on the positive and negative spectrum on the emotional scale. One part in me just wishes to die; I am having panic attack and suicidal tendency. On the other hand, I have a side to me that is telling me to shave it off and f*** the world. The rationale that it gives me is that optimistically I have 10 years of youth (not carefree coz of male pattern baldness), left in me and pessimistically life can end any moment. Now that I have already ruined 1 year over this crap; it would be better to just shave it off, though stay on the meds and forget it.
For me it is painful as I turn the clock year back and I have the best hair at my workplace. So the irony of life is, you study, get a job and just when you feel like you have found a great person to spend your life with, all your self confidence plummets because of male pattern baldness.
I know it's even tougher for you since you are a lady.
The best option really is to shave it off. Face the sh*t that world throws at you; the mocks, their gaze (For me it would be OMG this guy receded so goddamn quickly). Hop on life and hope on that the girl you adore will not be scared of this new person.
Anyway, I am still locked in my room for past 2 days with my soreful head and sorrowful heart, tinkering with keyboard and contemplating my course of action. JIC I don't find the love I am seeking, I will consider relinquishing everything and jump into the philanthropist band-wagon. I do have altruistic tendencies. I wish, I was born a buddhist monk (right from your birth you are clean shaven so f*** male pattern baldness).
Hope is a good thinking; since I am diffusing equally; I might have Telogen Effluvium though I do have Androgenetic Alopecia and slight receding at temples.
I will carry on with the meds (dutasteride, min, finasteride) and at most add estradiol (preferably topical).
If this turns the clock a year back and restores my temples by 2 cm, I will be a happy man.
I wish you the strength to brace this tough time and pray that you have a head full of hair. Atleast almighty should shower you with that gift this coming year.
Amen.