Your hair honestly doesn't look that bad, I thought it would be worse judging by what you said. Your hairline is so much better then mine. Give it some time after the orchie, I bet you'll have good regrowth, and like I said look into other coexisting reasons that might be causing hair loss.
Also I just looked up our conversations from October, and it seems we share some things in common. You honestly seem to have actual physical dysphoria, similar to mine in the aspect it's mostly about androgenic body features. I advise trying to looksmaxx from a feminine angle, work on what you can with yourself, don't just hyper focus on hair, which in my honest opinion is not that bad. Generally try to become cuter. I'm sure you can get somewhere. Please don't see yourself as a "tranny" or sexual predator, and don't think taking HRT obligates you to socially transition.
I think you should also work on the self hatred ingrained into your mindset, probably because of male socialization. You don't have to hate yourself just because you feel you have no value as a man. I don't see myself as man and don't identify with masculinity at all, yeah I was born biologically male, but so what? I don't care. I'm a human being at first, not what society wants me to be just because of the sex I was born as. Maybe you should try adopting a similar mindset.
If I end up passing I'll socially transition and present female, if not I'll be a HRT femboy for life. Achieving a cuter and more feminine look is something I do for myself, to fight my dysphoria, not for others. It's a form of self care which got myself out of suicidal thoughts I used to have before HRT. Idk if my perspective is useful, but I'm trying to help.
Please take care, and I'm sure you'll make it if you try, whatever your goals might be.