I apologize if I made a similar thread like this before and this is just a bit of me wanting to rant
First of all Ill just say I never had a care free life even before hair loss. I had other problems that got in the way of happiness however as soon as I started getting comfortable with myself , being socail, ect hairloss comes to kick in . It pisses me off so much because I am in such a better place then I was if not for hairloss. I could be a normal person my age which is crazy to imagine. Hairloss at a young age is an isolating experience from your peers.
I hardly see anyone my age dealing with balding, and if the off chance there is someone balding it will most likely be someone who looks like they dont give a sh*t about their appearance anyways. You never see decent looking young ( I mean sub 25) going bald- just don't see it. I am just sick of all the bluepill stuff people say in real life. hairloss completely fucks you for 80% of guys. It screws your life over but then people just say that it doesn't matter. how can people be stupid enough to say it doesn't matter?
This sounds wrong to say but when I hear of people having problems with weight, alchocol, accidentally pregnancy I literally get Jealous. I mean what the hell..... people like to say we all have problems/ flaws but hairloss is soooo much more then that. I feel so disgusting because of it so I can relate to the subhuman idea. Instead of being born flat out ugly I have to just watch it happen before my eyes .
Now a days I get by by "coping" aka distracting myself and deluding myself that propecia will save me from nw7 destiny or that the miracle cure is right around the corner. What really scares me though , is that my hair isn't even terrible yet so I can't imagine how it must feel to be nw4+. I dont think I could handle it.
f*** mate. I tried to stay away from this forum but I need to vent like you.
Can't get over this sh*t at 21. Finasteride is somehow working but its effect is very mild, not cosmetic, and I am at the end of month 6. Every time someone comments on my hair, even innocently, I just want to hide and stop living.
I am so ashamed of myself. I look like sh*t, like an old man. I feel like a disappointment to family, friends and girlfriend. Everyone has luscious hair and here I am, struggling to maintain a diffusing rats nest on finasteride at 21. I am NW3 diffusing and sometimes, especially when it's night, I can somehow get away with it, but under the sun during the day it's game over.
I genuinely feel like a failure. I feel guilty and ashamed even if it's entirely genetic. Sometimes I skip social gatherings because I don't want to make my friends feel bad about hanging out with such a joke like me.
I stopped smoking because I want my blood circulation to improve. Maybe, I thought, it will affect positively my hair. A common side effect of stopping smoking is weight gain. I am getting fatter by the day, I am not lean anymore like before. I am now working on putting on a diet. If anyone on here smokes, I advise to stop immediately because you WILL get fat by stopping, and the later you do it the worse it may get.
I look in the mirror and see a funny belly, pectorals that are becoming fat, lots of chest hair and belly hair that's expanding steadily, undeveloped reddish thin beard (I am too young), a balding head, a big forehead that is more than 1/3 of my face.
I f*****g hate myself. I would greatly tolerate a tiny bit of fat, chest hair and undeveloped beard if I had a f*****g 20something head of hair.
It's all about hair.
I look like a middle aged man who let himself go, just because of the hair. Not my fault (except the bit of fat, which is caused by stopping smoking, working on it), but because of genetics that gave me body hair and baldness and a shitty beard. I am not even tall.
I really feel like I failed. Like I'm not allowed to live a normal life anymore because I grew old and ugly at 21. Today a friend of mine commented on my hair very innocently. I obviously hid every feeling and just smiled. Now I feel so low.
I hope this will stop one day. I just want to defeat this disease and start living without feeling so ugly. It's so sad that it's not just BDD, baldness is real and it's truly ugly and changes people to the worse. Some people can take the hit. I just can't.