Hello, I'm The Ugliest Kid On Earth And My Life Is Terrible.

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I'm 18 years old and everything in my life has always been terrible. My father was abusive and died when I was young, my mother is never around, I have no money in a pretty affluent area, and if I didn't have enough going on, I literally hate myself now with a passion to the point where I can't sleep at night from worrying about my hair because guess what? I'm 18 and I'm further into balding than any 18 year old I've ever seen, and I haven't even seen any of my peers even begin balding. Hell, all of the adults I know have more hair than me. So yeah, I seem to be doomed to life a horrible life and now I'm going to be forever alone too. I'm way too ugly to ever have a girlfriend and I don't want to hear the "life is better bald" sh*t because I tried it, hated it, and couldn't leave my house for weeks unless I had to for work (where I'm lucky to work in a professional environment with adults who wouldn't say anything). But I've had comments about it in school, overheard family talking about it, and and had an anxiety attack because I wouldn't take off my hat to have a picture taken for a school ID. When I came back from summer to my senior year of high school I got the great pointer that I was going bald (like I didn't know) and I'll give you guys a rundown of other comments about it this year. I've been called "Manu Ginobili", "You look like you're 40 years old", "I can see right through the front of you hair and see your bald head", "Nice hairline", had a coach tell me "He has too much hair, you should borrow some of his", and a few days before my graduation we were doing a rehearsal and someone yelled "Hey dude, you're balding!" when I was the only one walking across the stage. I don't want to be bald and be the only bald person I know and I don't want to live my life alone because no one will ever date me when I look like this. I decided last night that if I still don't have at least my first kiss or anything by the time I'm 25 I am going to kill myself. I'm sorry to be so negative and I do have a lot else going for me but this is a pressing issue in my life that I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone I actually know about and I'd like some empathy and support and this seems a good place to do it because I can be somewhat anonymous. Thanks guys. https://imgur.com/a/Ijo81
 

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I'm 18 years old and everything in my life has always been terrible. My father was abusive and died when I was young, my mother is never around, I have no money in a pretty affluent area, and if I didn't have enough going on, I literally hate myself now with a passion to the point where I can't sleep at night from worrying about my hair because guess what? I'm 18 and I'm further into balding than any 18 year old I've ever seen, and I haven't even seen any of my peers even begin balding. Hell, all of the adults I know have more hair than me. So yeah, I seem to be doomed to life a horrible life and now I'm going to be forever alone too. I'm way too ugly to ever have a girlfriend and I don't want to hear the "life is better bald" sh*t because I tried it, hated it, and couldn't leave my house for weeks unless I had to for work (where I'm lucky to work in a professional environment with adults who wouldn't say anything). But I've had comments about it in school, overheard family talking about it, and and had an anxiety attack because I wouldn't take off my hat to have a picture taken for a school ID. When I came back from summer to my senior year of high school I got the great pointer that I was going bald (like I didn't know) and I'll give you guys a rundown of other comments about it this year. I've been called "Manu Ginobili", "You look like you're 40 years old", "I can see right through the front of you hair and see your bald head", "Nice hairline", had a coach tell me "He has too much hair, you should borrow some of his", and a few days before my graduation we were doing a rehearsal and someone yelled "Hey dude, you're balding!" when I was the only one walking across the stage. I don't want to be bald and be the only bald person I know and I don't want to live my life alone because no one will ever date me when I look like this. I decided last night that if I still don't have at least my first kiss or anything by the time I'm 25 I am going to kill myself. I'm sorry to be so negative and I do have a lot else going for me but this is a pressing issue in my life that I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone I actually know about and I'd like some empathy and support and this seems a good place to do it because I can be somewhat anonymous. Thanks guys. https://imgur.com/a/Ijo81

Sir, proceed to the Impact section, please.
https://www.hairlosstalk.com/interact/forums/the-impact-of-hair-loss.28/

Your hairloss is very rapid and side sucks as well.

Was your father abusive because of being bald (just asking)?
 

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I don't know what to say to be honest.

You are NW5 with retrograde alopecia.

Unfortunately, I think it's over in hair department for you. Try dutasteride or finasteride at least.
 

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Nope, he was bipolar and died when I was very young of drug overdose. I thought about putting this on the impact section but this seemed a better fit, but I wasn't to sure. How should I move it? Just repost it?

Better just ask admins to perform a relocate.

@Wolf Pack or @Roberto_72 move this topic to the Impact section, maybe?
 

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I don't know what to say to be honest.

You are NW5 with retrograde alopecia.

Unfortunately, I think it's over in hair department for you. Try dutasteride or finasteride at least.

I figured that. Honestly if I didn't have any hope for my future, or if my career or schooling fails I will just kill myself.
 

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You are fucked. I dont think you could get any decent hair back.

You have nothing to lose and I think you would feel better with some trenbolone in your blood stream. The main side effects wouldnt affect you because you are bald and ugly anyway.

Going to the gym wont get you any girls but using drugs most people your age would be afraid to use would mean you could outlift everyone and give you atleast something else to work towards in life and some satisfaction.

OP if youre going to kill yourself make sure its with a steroid overdose and not something lame like cyanide.

mate that other post was funny but this is just plain retarded

the kid is having a breakdown ffs
 

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Thanks man, this makes me feel a lot better about myself. You should probably refrain from leaving comments like this to depressed and vulnerable people.

dude you need to see some doctors about your hair asap

18 years old with serious thinning on the sides cannot be normal

it could well be salvaged through medications for underlying problem, unrelated to hair
 

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I think I'm going to go see a dermatologist. I wonder if this could be from being anorexic for a while and is reversible.

i could understand the thinning on top is just bad luck but the sides are not normal for a 18 yr old. see some derms asap

sorry for your other issues man. hope things get better. talk to some people in your life you can to help. its not easy dealing with a lot of sh*t so young. good luck to you man. stay strong
 

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At your age, such aggressive hairloss could be a result of external factors; go see a dermatologist ASAP; ask them to run tests to determine root of the problem. Trust me, as soon as you are talking to the dr you will start feeling better because you will be starting to gain control over the issue.

Ask them about treatment options; if they can't identify an out of the ordinary cause (which is possible) you need to start on proven treatments like I mentioned. Don't believe the hype of side effects of Finasteride - try it and see if it works for yourself. We have several treatment options on the horizon for the next 2-5 years which could really help the situation of everyone on this forum. Being young, you do have a legitimate chance at a full head of hair in the next few years if some of the treatment options become commercially available.

Kids at 18 are assholes and their life is sh*t, that's why they act like sh*t. Don't pay attention to bullies or pricks who insult you over the condition; remember, nothing is permanent, and this too shall pass. Just be patient and fight to get back as much as you can.
Thank you, this means a lot. I've already run a comprehensive metabolic panel, CBC/D, and TSH, and I found them to be withing reference ranges. I suppose that those aren't the only causes and tests though so I'll do more. If it's telogen effluvium it could already be corrected because I eat normally now and I just have to wait. I guess at the end of the day, I'll see a dermatologist and we'll see what the future holds.
 

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I hope a dermatologist can help fix your problems. Sorry if I seemed mean, I just went out for my 19th birthday and I had to cut it short when I noticed my norwooding in the pubs bathroom mirror - it completely destroyed me.

I know how it feels to go through this at such a young age and it sucks. So I was probably taking my own insecurities out on you also im a little bit drunk.

Good luck with your hair regrowth.
Thank you, I actually sincerely appreciate the apology and I understand because I tend to do the same thing to a tee, especially the part about not doing things because of your hair. A few weeks ago I wore a hat to a wedding and some people asked me to take it off and I said I just had a very invasive scalp surgery. Oh well.
 

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I'm 18 years old and everything in my life has always been terrible. My father was abusive and died when I was young, my mother is never around, I have no money in a pretty affluent area, and if I didn't have enough going on, I literally hate myself now with a passion to the point where I can't sleep at night from worrying about my hair because guess what? I'm 18 and I'm further into balding than any 18 year old I've ever seen, and I haven't even seen any of my peers even begin balding. Hell, all of the adults I know have more hair than me. So yeah, I seem to be doomed to life a horrible life and now I'm going to be forever alone too. I'm way too ugly to ever have a girlfriend and I don't want to hear the "life is better bald" sh*t because I tried it, hated it, and couldn't leave my house for weeks unless I had to for work (where I'm lucky to work in a professional environment with adults who wouldn't say anything). But I've had comments about it in school, overheard family talking about it, and and had an anxiety attack because I wouldn't take off my hat to have a picture taken for a school ID. When I came back from summer to my senior year of high school I got the great pointer that I was going bald (like I didn't know) and I'll give you guys a rundown of other comments about it this year. I've been called "Manu Ginobili", "You look like you're 40 years old", "I can see right through the front of you hair and see your bald head", "Nice hairline", had a coach tell me "He has too much hair, you should borrow some of his", and a few days before my graduation we were doing a rehearsal and someone yelled "Hey dude, you're balding!" when I was the only one walking across the stage. I don't want to be bald and be the only bald person I know and I don't want to live my life alone because no one will ever date me when I look like this. I decided last night that if I still don't have at least my first kiss or anything by the time I'm 25 I am going to kill myself. I'm sorry to be so negative and I do have a lot else going for me but this is a pressing issue in my life that I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone I actually know about and I'd like some empathy and support and this seems a good place to do it because I can be somewhat anonymous. Thanks guys. https://imgur.com/a/Ijo81

You need a hardcore support group, not just for hairloss, but in life.

Trust me, at your age, i needed it too.

You need to start with one good friend, and then five good friends, and approach life with a support loving system.

And you need to hairloss advice so that you can have a family and career.
 

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You need a hardcore support group, not just for hairloss, but in life.

Trust me, at your age, i needed it too.

You need to start with one good friend, and then five good friends, and approach life with a support loving system.

And you need to hairloss advice so that you can have a family and career.
I have two friends who I feel comfortable talking to about this stuff and I usually just spam them whenever I get upset and I feel really bad after lol.
 

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You should use minoxidil asap since it's cheap and safe. Consider finasteride as well, but at your age you should talk to a doctor first.

Unfortunately your best case scenario is probably to preserve as much hair as you can. As others mentioned, if you can stabilize with treatments then at least you can get a transplant down the road or new treatments may become available.

As for other sh*t, my only advice is try to control what you can (body, hygiene, clothes, etc), focus on goals that will improve your life (career), and do your best to not get bogged down with mental illness. Try to set yourself up to make things possibly better with time rather than definitely worse.
 

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It sucks man I know what it feels like to be losing hair at a young age . Worst feeling . I use hats as a crutch also and hate situations like that where you have to take them off.

I've been on treatments for 6 months ( finasteride) and one year ( min) no improvement but also no sides. So it's worth a try.

Other then that I just hope for a cure and try to live life as normally as possible. Sometimes having hobbies that don't involve other people are nice because even if your hair is going to hell you can still find some kind of enjoyment in life.

Hairloss at a young age has definitely changed me as a person though. It's hard to explain to some people why it matters so much but I'm a completely different person now. Yet I still have parts of life I enjoy which is why I don't give up with it.
 

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I'm really, truly sorry man for what you've been through and what you're going through. I'm 17 years old, but my hair is no where near bad as yours, i can't even imagine how you feel. I have a bad life and fucked up problems too, but many people here are understanding and mature enough to help us and offer us the support we need. If you need anything you'll find it here and you can vent as much as you want we'll always help you or i'll at least.
 
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