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I know there's some men who have never had a girlfriend and there's me worse off and all that.
But 3 years ago I met a girl online. I'd never had a gf up until that point, no girl had ever shown me love, not even my mother (she's a narcissist). She wasn't beautiful or pretty but there was something about her I just liked. It was easy being with her, It felt like I had met an old friend i'd known for years. We started dating, it was intense, passionate and I quickly fell in love.
But god, she was just so trashy. I quickly became aware of how trashy she was. I don't know how many men she had been with but it's fair to say it would be in the triple digits. She had no self esteem. Was from the ghetto. Had some serious mental issues. Still spoke about her ex and wore his clothes. Had been sexually abused etc. At times I was genuinely embarrassed to tell people she was my girlfriend.
But she was super fun, easy going.. great sex, incredibly enthusiastic, wanted me to try all these things with her ... probably the most fun i've had in my life since high school . I could do anything with her and always find myself smiling and laughing.
We were only together for about 8 months? she ended up cheating on me with random men.. no surprise lol and just dropping me like I was nothing.
I know I dodged a bullet and saved myself from years of pain. But it's been such a long time and still i think about her and almost get a touch sad/nostalgic about. Come to miss how silly and degenerate she was.
Why do I still think of her? I don't want her back but still kind of miss her in a way.
Now i go on dating apps and all I match with are trannies, single mums and women who weigh 3-4x my body weight.
But 3 years ago I met a girl online. I'd never had a gf up until that point, no girl had ever shown me love, not even my mother (she's a narcissist). She wasn't beautiful or pretty but there was something about her I just liked. It was easy being with her, It felt like I had met an old friend i'd known for years. We started dating, it was intense, passionate and I quickly fell in love.
But god, she was just so trashy. I quickly became aware of how trashy she was. I don't know how many men she had been with but it's fair to say it would be in the triple digits. She had no self esteem. Was from the ghetto. Had some serious mental issues. Still spoke about her ex and wore his clothes. Had been sexually abused etc. At times I was genuinely embarrassed to tell people she was my girlfriend.
But she was super fun, easy going.. great sex, incredibly enthusiastic, wanted me to try all these things with her ... probably the most fun i've had in my life since high school . I could do anything with her and always find myself smiling and laughing.
We were only together for about 8 months? she ended up cheating on me with random men.. no surprise lol and just dropping me like I was nothing.
I know I dodged a bullet and saved myself from years of pain. But it's been such a long time and still i think about her and almost get a touch sad/nostalgic about. Come to miss how silly and degenerate she was.
Why do I still think of her? I don't want her back but still kind of miss her in a way.
Now i go on dating apps and all I match with are trannies, single mums and women who weigh 3-4x my body weight.
