Today I found out that she is getting married
- in less then 3 weeks. Middle of September.
What an idiot I am for fancying a 41 year old anyway.
All I wanted to do was go to work and do the job. One of the few disasters that could of encountered me was this.
This has pretty much killed the situation.
Now guess what? - I feel like sh*t even more.
This is pathetic.
As if I’d have a real chance anyway.
Without my hat, I don’t look as good, thanks to life destroying hair loss. I don't know. With my hat she probably thought I was Kevin Federline or something.
Today I didn’t speak to her the whole day. She never spoke to me either. In fact, she was happy the whole day.
Why was she happy? It was obvious.
You know some say that woman have that 6th sense, that they *know* when someone fancies them? Well, I think I’ve blown my cover. I probably made it too obvious. I have no idea how though because I basically didn’t.
Anyway, as I say, she was so over-happy. I think it made her day, that someone half her age still finds her attractive. I think I might have fed her ego to the extreme.
This begs the question, how the hell did she figure it out. God knows how.
Man, we’re not talking Kim Basinger in the looks department, but she is quite hot.
I think it’s got to her ego. She probably now thinks she can compete with Spears or Aguilera.
She also has this other guy who hangs around with her. He is the biggest twat on earth. He is losing his hair, but is so bitter that I wear a hat all the time, it gets on his nerves. He never says anything, but you can tell he has the opinion 'come on, stop hiding your hair loss, I don’t hide mine'.
Well that’s his choice at the end of the day. But I didn’t document that fact I have hair loss. It’s only because I look acceptable with a hat that this gets to him. This geek really is in the way of everything.
Anyone here would find her attractive, but there is a difference between being nice like she was last week and totally becoming big headed, because someone half her age thinks she is hot.
It’s now the land of the ego.
I want to build her ego up a bit, then sit back and become amused at the obvious delusions of grandeur that are going on. Do you suggest anything I could say to her?
What do older woman like hearing? Someone please tell me?
On the bad side, she does have a few bad points. Wrinkles being one. She has a few, like most 41 year olds. I look past this, I still find her sexy.
Any more advice?
It's time to decide, I have less then 2 weeks to launch ‘operation: wedding wrecker‘ or leave it.
Probably the latter.
Although, I will probably end up leaving. This is doing my head in, and I stand to get well and truly destroyed if I play the game wrong.
Cheers guys
ps, Sorry for the spelling mistakes. I never had my Rothmans Dictionary at my table when I posted.
