ok, i've finally come to my senses.
i don't want to complain about "what if's" and "worries" anymore.
nothing is happening to me at the moment out of the ordinary, so i'll just be happy this is so.
sure, i may be feeling funny around my chest area, but i was always sort of fat there to begin with, all i need to do is work out.
sure, i may feel some tingly sensations every once in a while, but i probably always have due to climate change, seasonal irritation, allergic reactions, whatever. point is, it's probably because i'm thinking about it alot and noticing it alot more, whereas in the past, i might have just gone: oh, funny feeling. and then ignored it.
what i'm going to do is not worry about this anymore, and if i actually do get any "serious" symptoms, i'll post it here and ask for your advice then. but for now, since i'm not feeling "major" pain, or even any real pain (just irritation). i'll stop asking "what if" questions.
now that i think about it some more: i might be feeling these irritations because i've been touching myself around the chest area, squeezing, pushing, poking trying to see if i have gyno symptoms. and because i've been doing these poking, pushing, etc, now that area is tender. (like if you continually play with your belly button, it will eventually get sore).
so that's it from me for now. if you hear from me again, don't think "boy who cried wolf" because if you do hear from me again, it will be for something more serious.
thanks for your time, hope it wasn't wasted too much.
(i'll still be on the forums though, hopefully offering good advice and learning as well).
just no more paranoid delusion sh*t.
peace.