Just an update. I will no longer be taking Propecia. This is my THIRD day off it (I've only been on it for 29 days) and what do I notice!? NOT A SINGLE HAIR ON MY PILLOW. Well this is odd, because for the past 2 weeks I've seen 20 waking every morning. I take a shower...what is this!??? ONLY 5 or 10 hairs? Not 100 like before? I go to dry my hair over the sink!? What is this? 1 or 2? Not 30?
I had my appointment today with my derm and even HE advised I discontinue propecia. He said hes had 100's of patients and none have describes a SEVERE increase in shedding. For all of you out there who are starting off your treatment and experiencing a similar shed to mine, it is MY OWN PERSONAL OPINION, that you discontinue the medicine immediately. In 29 days my hairline and crown have been SEVERELY HIT, and I know for a fact that what took years to get thin, got even thinner in a matter of a few weeks. (I originally started on propecia to be preemptive).
I think the problem is for us young people especially, when we notice a little recession or a bit of thinning we immediately freak out due to our age and rush to start throwing things in our mouths and onto our heads. Beyond the fact that Propecia severely impacted my hairline, the drug is a TOTAL mindfuck. Your constantly wondering WILL IT COME BACK, SHOULD I STOP AND PRAY MY HAIR COMES BACK OR SHOULD I KEEP GOING BECAUSE I'M STUCK!? I cant IMAGINE those of you who are 6 months in and have to make the decision to stop or keep going. I've only been on it a month and I agonized for 10 hours straight on what to do.
Needless to say, its SO much less stressful knowing I'm going bald NATURALLY then AM I BALDING FASTER BECAUSE OF PROPECIA OR BECAUSE MY HAIRLOSS IS GETTING WORSE. True I'll now still be balding, but I can tell you RIGHT now mentally I feel SOOOOO much better (just due to the mind games) and it's nice to NOT BE AFRAID OF MY f*****g SHOWER ANYMORE. I literally wouldn't shower for 3 days on end because I couldn't bare to see hair completely cover my hands.
I don't blame myself OR propecia. I made a logical and conscious decision to take action and try and treat my hairloss early. Unfortunately it didn't work. Does it suck? You bet it does, but I know my intentions were good and I'm willing to cut my losses. My father took propecia and said he never had a significant shed. If you notice, ALOT of the posts in forums about successful propecia users (were talking the 5+ years users) never had a serious shed. (my father was on it for 6 years). My own derm said in all his years not a single patient came back and mentioned the fact they were unhappy with the drug due to extensive shedding.
Yes I know, no before and after pictures, your mind plays tricks on you, so on and so on. I don't give a sh*t what you think :] I know my hair best and I'm an EXTREMELY logical person who isn't influenced easily by power of suggestion. Today is clear proof (to me atleast) that Propecia was NOT the way to go. Even if it DID grow back a year later, I'm not mentally equipped to deal with the mindfuck this drug causes due to the ups and downs and what if what nots should I have done this or should I have done that.
NOW, if I get to the day where I NATURALLY shed as many hairs as I was shedding on Propecia, then sure it's worth the payoff. But with a full head of hair (now much thinner with a worse crown and hairline) I don't see the point in playing russian roulette with my body and head. Plus, I thought to myself, I'm 21, if I get lucky the drug will work WELL for 5 years (if I'm lucky some works for 10 years plus). Then I have to go through this f*****g garbage AGAIN later on and life and then come off the drug lose a SHITLOAD of hair (as my father did when he stopped), worry about side effects, and then be depressed ALL over again.
Personally, I've decided it's healthier for me to go naturally bald then delay the inevitable. I don't want the rug pulled from under me TWICE. I'd rather accept this NOW then have 6 years of my life occupied with worrying and sitting in front of the mirror like I was on Propecia. Propecia actually DID help. Now I can look at my hair and say, oh im balding, thats life. Where for 29 days I would think to myself...omg...I'm going to be bald next year...will this be better...wont it...what do i do when it stops working...what do I do if I need to raise my mg to dutasteride?
The payoff isnt there for me mentally or cosmetically. I believe this drug works and I believe there are people and shed who ride it out. Personally, like I said even if I made a mistake and didn't let the drug do its thing, I don't personally believe going from not shedding to losing 200 hairs a day is normal AND OR POSITIVE. My derm agreed, my father agreed, and his hair transplant Doctor that he spoke to agreed.
Sorry for the long post but this seems to be my final acceptance of NATURAL hairloss until something like HM comes along (which by the I'll probably be to old to care what the fucks on my head)
I wish luck to all of you and I'd like to thank you again everyone for helping talk things out with me.
Not that many games, but XBOX doesn't have many either. I have Rainbow Six, Call of Duty 4, Fifa 08, and Metal Gear Solid and GTA is coming out so I have something to look forward to. Plus it's my blue ray player and MP3 player so it was definitely worth the investment. The only thing XBOX has to offer is Halo, which gets old after about 10 kills lol. 
