****, swing.. There must be some asspects of your life you are happy with..
nope, stuck in an awful relationship I cant (literally cant) leave. I just had a fire at my rental and in the middle of TOTALLY gutting and rebuilding another apt, im overworked, i hate my job (line of work) i spent 4 years of full time work and college (at the same time) to get, i have not had a social life in years, im losing my hair and whats left is so grey people think im in my 40's, while my brother who is 2 years younger looks in his 20s.
Even if i do walk away from all the money and this relationship its not like Im good looking anymore so who the f**k will I get anyway. I dream of the liberation of alcoholism and a timely death. Im so depressed lately I have no desire to even work out.
I tried the shaven head for a couple years but it wasnt me. I was told so by multiple people. I just had an FUE and Im the one in a million who get a bad reaction. I get sides to finasteride and minoxidil does squat.
I REALLY REALLY wish I had the balls to just finish the job.
I rapidly feel the nastiness growing in me. Im awful to my woman now, because Im so fed up with my entire situation. I have told her multiple times I want out and we need to sell the house but she wont do it. She is the type of person who wants the facade of having a younger man even though I WONT hae sex with her. I can not find her attractive, she has gained SO much weight and age has shown on her face. Yet shes so jealous still that I cant even get out to find anyone else. Ive even offered to have an open relationship. I dont even care if she has sex with other people.
There is NO aspect of my life I am currently content with at all. My brother has been helping me with my rental and all he does is show me pics of the girls he fools around with. I havent had that since I was 25. I WASTED those last good years of being adequate looking with this woman. Ill never know that, nor woudl I EVER be able to pull it with my hair now.
Me and him were out last year while I had my shaved head and a girl openly said "no I think hes hotter, he has nice hair".
I want to hire a hit on myself just so I dont have to pull the trigger and truly say I gave up.