I would grow my hair out again and get a haircut that isn't a buzz cut, I would also go swimming! I haven't been to a public pool since my hair loss started. I would also throw away all of my ball caps (I have started to wear them less but the drama caused by not wearing hats is getting to be too much to deal with).
I would also start going outside more often and start dating again, enjoy life, also revel in my youthful appearance and maybe even grow a fringe again! Start dressing younger and be my true self instead of wearing more masculine clothes and relying on working out to get some of my self esteem back. I've been trying to go with the alpha male balding look but it doesn't suit my personality at all.
Overall, half of my problems would be solved if this were to happen, balding has had a deteriorative affect on me that gets worse daily, most people accept balding more and more over time but I haven't got to that point, if anything I'm more depressed now than when it started.
When I look in the mirror I feel like an old man when I have a youthful soul inside, when I wear my old sneakers from high school with a hoodie and band T-shirts people look at me weird but when I had decent hair 2 years ago people looked at me normally.
I always get told I look "more professional" from people when in actuality I'm not that way at all inside, I'm very rebellious and free-spirited and feel young inside but on the outside I look the opposite. It's like I'm a shell of my former self and it's killing me.
I seriously thought I'd get used to balding when it started and that I'd laugh it off eventually but I was more wrong than I thought... That is the worst lie I've ever told myself.
I've tried to tell myself "Pfft it's just hair, who needs it?" but hair is the same as clothes and having a distinct personality, your hair is a way of expressing yourself and hair loss forces you into either a shaved, bald, or horseshoe style and unless your masculine enough to pull it off you will always look worse than you did before.
