I have a very active social life, but I am in pain every second in every social situation because of hair loss.
When in public, I live in constant dread and discomfort. I have to vent here a lot even if I have an active social life.
I am so accustomed to this feeling that I haven't been happy since I notice my already advanced hair loss, and I fake comfort and confidence everyday. Three long years have already passed.
I practically act everyday, like an actor. It helped me develop a fake confident stance and posture, so I actually look very confident and this allows me to keep a social life going.
No one can tell I feel like this. It's all hidden, and it's a huge weight in my mind. I can live like this though.
I completely forgot the blissful feeling of freedom of youth because I am balding, and I'm not supposed to. I liked water, and the sea. Now I dread swimming, and the sun shining through my thin head of hair.
Finasteride is working, but the effect is extremely marginal. In fact, I am just maintaining.
Not going to stop because acting on hair loss prevents me from harming myself, which happened multiple times before I started finasteride.
This is not living though. It's sh*t.