shame. i dont wanna be seen as a parasite, which i already sorta feel like
1) You don't need to advertise to everybody that you're on disability, lol. Just keep it to yourself, maybe one or two trusted people in real life.
2) There are so many parasites in society that there's really no conceivable way for you to become a leading parasite. Parasitism is socially constructed ... do we see wall street bankers are parasites? They're making $250,000/year minimum, often going much higher, getting bailouts in the billions and trillions (literally), for often doing nothing of value. We don't see people in the business world as parasites but that's where many of the biggest parasites are. Academia also has a lot of administrative staff that are not needed, and dead weight coasting on tenure. There are bad doctors, bad teachers, etc all of them are parasites, but we don't see them that way.
You of course *cannot* bring this up in public discussion, most people will scoff and say that welfare recipients are the only parasites. They're not the only parasites lol, but don't bother engaging with people's delusional world views.
3) You need to get your life in order bro. Think of the disability as buying you time. If you want to be on disability forever then that's a problem imo, but if you're doing it for 1 or 2 years it's fine. You have a lot of demons to deal with, you need to buy yourself time to deal with them.
A friend of mine had a life that was totally falling apart a while back. He was ordering illegal sleeping powder from China, using more than the standard dose, and still not sleeping. He was alcoholic. He weighed 280 lbs. He was not showing up to work. According to some people on here he had it easy because he still had hair. Either way, his life began to turn around when he checked into rehab and got help. Two years later he's in medical school and doing well.
I recovered from it.
