It's not that I don't find women attractive. I do. Good looking women make me turn my head all the time. I often wonder why I can't be normal and just have a pretty girlfriend and not be so obsessed with my own vanity. But it's sexual stimulation I absolutely hate. Vaginas are fine, nothing wrong with them really. But actually having sex is a nightmare beyond perception. Sexual stimulation is a complete sickness to me, I can't function for 24-72 hours afterwards because of severe depression and suicidal ideation. Hence why I want orchi. Any guy who seriously wants to cut their balls off has no business trying to date women (I'm only attracted to normal good looking women with presumably a lot of options).