True, it is very sad, the reason why I used self harm to castrate myself physically was because my f*****g dermatologist who refused to prescribe me spironolactone, he said you already have issues with depression and low Testosterone will make it worse I was like really motherfuckers, he said you are a young man and need testosterone to grow, f*** him!, so he prescribed me anti inflammatory shampoo and scheduled my next appointment after 8 months, I told him that hair loss is causing me massive distress but he didn't care, my parent were supporting him and told me that you are not a girl to whine over baldness, they don't understand, fuk this world,i didnt give up, I went to a psychiatrist I talked to him so he can refer me to a transgender doctor so I can get spironolactone, but I wasn't convincing enough because I dnt have male to female gender dysphoria, and then I tried ordering medications from the thaiandpharmacy and my package got destroyed Because Canada has a very strict rules, from there, I decided to kill my own testicles with my own hands, I chatted with eunuchs who have done diy method, and they guided me to go for it, so I did, I almost passed out because of pain, and I was bed ridden for weeks, I remember crawling to get food and water, I was in pain, until I called the ambulance to pick me up, from there I told the doctors why I did it and despite having zero viable tissues down there, they kicked me from the hospital and gave me antibiotics and painkiller and refused to take the testicles out although they were infected and painful, so I reinjected more toxics in there to the point where gangrene started spreading and I got blood poisoning from hydrogen peroxide, I revisited the emergency, until one urologist agreed on removal because it was life threatening to keep dead inside, even after that, getting the estrogen was pain in the ***, I had to wait six months with missed up hormones and severe hot flashes until they finally prescribed me one, f*** doctors, they are ignorant motherfuckers who think the can buy the world with their social status, so people on this forum must stop calling me mentally ill, because they don't understand my story, anyway, I won over that f*****g disease called male pattern baldness and now my body doesn't even produce those poisons(androgens) anymore, androgens were destroying me, hair loss is just one, they made me a pervert, an emotionless monster, I smelled and looked awful and sick one that poison, now iam free and forever free, I won this battle.