I dont know if you still use this account but why did you post this thread? is it because you want some sympathy from us? you want us to feel sorry for your misfortune, for the *****y genetic you have, and how much better we have? Is that really going to make you feel happy? probably not.
Look life is not fair, god doesn't exist. Some people get lucky and be born into rich family where all they have to do is some charity work and all people would love them, other people are born into poverty, where they all would probably born with a disease or get a disease during childhood, or just wouldn't have enough food to make it through childhood alive and even if they did, what would they look forward to. Other are born without limb because their mother weren't informed of the side effect of the pill she was taking. Other are born during war. Some are orphan. Some are billionaires. And in your case, some got ****ty genetics.
But u have to make the most use out of the hand you were dealt with. You don't like your problem, deal with it.
Your skinny, gain muscle, work out, you said 'I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO LIFT WEIGHT TO LOOK ******* NORMAL' ok, thats just a pathetic excuse, how else are you gonna look better, a same dude would look better when he is buff then when he is skinny, it would be hard but its all about your commitment and how bad you want it
You don't like your face, reconstruct it through surgical procedure, its your face, don't overdue it of course.
You said you might have cancer or you already have cancer (not sure what u meant), are you actually going to feel sad if you have cancer, it sounded like you already gave up on life, cancer is just a terminal disease in which you would die, but if you have nothing to live for, then why are u so sad about, but if u don't want to die, well that's good
'it's only when you lost everything you're free to do anything'
You might be wondering that 'this guy don't have as hard as me, how would he know how i feel' which is true, I am not blessed with your '****ty' genetics, but all I am telling you to do is live your life to the fullest. Dont care what other people think.
You have to create a purpose for your life and make your life meaningful. My aim is to become a king, people laugh at it, but atleast I would have a meaningful life working toward that goal.