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Hi. Like most people I've been lurking around here for a few weeks before posting. I find this place simultaneously highly informative and exceptionally depressing.
[I'm so sorry for the long boring whining, i didn't mean to go on so much. Just needed to get it off my chest I guess..]
I've recently turned 26. I've always had very, very low self-esteem, no confidence and have been depressed (self-diagnosed !) for as long as I can remember. No particular reason, there's nothing physically wrong with me, I'm tall, well built and fairly good looking. Yeah, I'm like "wtf?" too. Aaanyway. About 6 months ago, my life started to get better. I got a really good job, very well paid doing something I like. I lost a lot of weight, something that had been bugging me for a long time, and I finally had the body I've wanted for ages. I got out of the boring sh*t hole part of the country I was living in and moved to camden in london (which is a very lively, vivid place if you dont know it). Things were getting better and I was starting to feel good about myself. Gained a little self esteem and started buying cool clothes and I treated myself to a nice (expensive) haircut for doing so well.
Then soon after all that I met up with an old friend of mine who I hadn't seen in a while. He said "you're looking good mate. But you're losing your hair". It was completely devastating. He was right of course. But having it pointed out was just f*****g horrible. A few days later, after the realisation had sunk in, I went for a walk on my own in the dark and I cried like a fricking baby. haha, yeah pretty pathetic. I thought; it was damn unfair, that finally things were going well for me for the first time in my life and then it turns out I was balding at 26. It also signaled the end of my youth. It was too late. It's over. I'm passed it.
But, I thought, it's not toooo bad. I bought a popular hair concealer and grew my hair longer and it looked pretty damn good. It was an utter nightmare in the morning, took me like an hour to get ready but at least I felt ok going out. My hair got so long that I went to get it trimmed at the sides a bit. The hairdresser clearly misunderstood (English wasn't her first language) and proceeded to cut all my hair off and style it like a young Jimmy White. Terr-f*****g-ific. Back to where I started. That was a week ago. My mood has been yo-yoing like crazy. And I'm completely obsessed with hair, it occupies my every waking thought. I analyze ever guy's hair I see. I'm having trouble sleeping and the last three nights it's even occupied MY GOD DAMN DREAMS! ARGH NO ESCAPE!! haha.
In short, I have to do something.
Weeks ago, when all this bad stuff happened, I did my research. I really really REALLY didn't like the idea of taking drugs that would a) make my hair fall out (even if it was temporary) and b) kill my sex drive which is already pretty low, what with all the depression (lol?). So, I thought, I'll go with growing my hair a little longer and using the concealer for as-long-as-doesn't-look-ridiculous and then shave it when it does. Then, I thought I'd get hair cloning or multiplication or whatever you call it when this Intercytex thing is available in a few years. But I get the feeling from reading various things that it's not going to be available for much longer than they're saying - and by then I'll be fricking 30-odd and my youth (you know; those supposed best years of my life) will definitely be over. Damnit.
Here's my hair:
Wet, with bright halogen lamp and high-quality camera with a very bright flash. I've also shaped my hair to make the balding/thinning look nice and clear. WORST POSSIBLE CONDITIONS EVAAAAR!!:
I should mention; it's shorter than it looks. The front part is much longer than the top, back and rear.
Same conditions, but dry:
And here's how it looked just over a week ago before that b**ch cut it all off lol:
To be honest, I'm not really that bothered about the front going thin/receeding. It's more the rear (crown/vertex?) that's getting me. Both at the same time though? Awesome, just awesome. Thanks for passing on your grade-F genes, dad.
I don't know what to do. I just want to forget about it. My hair has bugged me all my life, it's f*****g horrible. Even when it was thick a few years ago. I always cut it short, but I realise now I should have grown it long, would have looked much better. Oops! Too late.
I'm sooo tempted to shave it all off.
I knew I was going to go bald but I didn't figure so soon. Not sure when my dad started going bald (I have exactly the same hair as him) my mum says it was his mid 30s but I think she's just saying that to put me at ease. My grandad (mums side) went totally bald (horse-shoe). My other grandad, I can't remember too well, I'm sure he had a fairly decent amount at age ~70. My dad is 56 and has lost quite a bit of hair in the same pattern as me but he still has a respectable amount on top.
What to do?
Sorry for the length of this post..
[I'm so sorry for the long boring whining, i didn't mean to go on so much. Just needed to get it off my chest I guess..]
I've recently turned 26. I've always had very, very low self-esteem, no confidence and have been depressed (self-diagnosed !) for as long as I can remember. No particular reason, there's nothing physically wrong with me, I'm tall, well built and fairly good looking. Yeah, I'm like "wtf?" too. Aaanyway. About 6 months ago, my life started to get better. I got a really good job, very well paid doing something I like. I lost a lot of weight, something that had been bugging me for a long time, and I finally had the body I've wanted for ages. I got out of the boring sh*t hole part of the country I was living in and moved to camden in london (which is a very lively, vivid place if you dont know it). Things were getting better and I was starting to feel good about myself. Gained a little self esteem and started buying cool clothes and I treated myself to a nice (expensive) haircut for doing so well.
Then soon after all that I met up with an old friend of mine who I hadn't seen in a while. He said "you're looking good mate. But you're losing your hair". It was completely devastating. He was right of course. But having it pointed out was just f*****g horrible. A few days later, after the realisation had sunk in, I went for a walk on my own in the dark and I cried like a fricking baby. haha, yeah pretty pathetic. I thought; it was damn unfair, that finally things were going well for me for the first time in my life and then it turns out I was balding at 26. It also signaled the end of my youth. It was too late. It's over. I'm passed it.
But, I thought, it's not toooo bad. I bought a popular hair concealer and grew my hair longer and it looked pretty damn good. It was an utter nightmare in the morning, took me like an hour to get ready but at least I felt ok going out. My hair got so long that I went to get it trimmed at the sides a bit. The hairdresser clearly misunderstood (English wasn't her first language) and proceeded to cut all my hair off and style it like a young Jimmy White. Terr-f*****g-ific. Back to where I started. That was a week ago. My mood has been yo-yoing like crazy. And I'm completely obsessed with hair, it occupies my every waking thought. I analyze ever guy's hair I see. I'm having trouble sleeping and the last three nights it's even occupied MY GOD DAMN DREAMS! ARGH NO ESCAPE!! haha.
In short, I have to do something.
Weeks ago, when all this bad stuff happened, I did my research. I really really REALLY didn't like the idea of taking drugs that would a) make my hair fall out (even if it was temporary) and b) kill my sex drive which is already pretty low, what with all the depression (lol?). So, I thought, I'll go with growing my hair a little longer and using the concealer for as-long-as-doesn't-look-ridiculous and then shave it when it does. Then, I thought I'd get hair cloning or multiplication or whatever you call it when this Intercytex thing is available in a few years. But I get the feeling from reading various things that it's not going to be available for much longer than they're saying - and by then I'll be fricking 30-odd and my youth (you know; those supposed best years of my life) will definitely be over. Damnit.
Here's my hair:
Wet, with bright halogen lamp and high-quality camera with a very bright flash. I've also shaped my hair to make the balding/thinning look nice and clear. WORST POSSIBLE CONDITIONS EVAAAAR!!:
I should mention; it's shorter than it looks. The front part is much longer than the top, back and rear.
Same conditions, but dry:
And here's how it looked just over a week ago before that b**ch cut it all off lol:
To be honest, I'm not really that bothered about the front going thin/receeding. It's more the rear (crown/vertex?) that's getting me. Both at the same time though? Awesome, just awesome. Thanks for passing on your grade-F genes, dad.
I don't know what to do. I just want to forget about it. My hair has bugged me all my life, it's f*****g horrible. Even when it was thick a few years ago. I always cut it short, but I realise now I should have grown it long, would have looked much better. Oops! Too late.
I'm sooo tempted to shave it all off.
I knew I was going to go bald but I didn't figure so soon. Not sure when my dad started going bald (I have exactly the same hair as him) my mum says it was his mid 30s but I think she's just saying that to put me at ease. My grandad (mums side) went totally bald (horse-shoe). My other grandad, I can't remember too well, I'm sure he had a fairly decent amount at age ~70. My dad is 56 and has lost quite a bit of hair in the same pattern as me but he still has a respectable amount on top.
What to do?
Sorry for the length of this post..
