There are weeks when I hardly think about my hairloss and times like today where it hits me.
The reality that my looks are being cruelly taken away until I look like a bland egg-shaped nobody.
It's not just the ugliness associated with baldness, but it's the blandness that also depresses me. That I'll look like any other generic white bald guy. I'll no longer have a specific face.
I remember posting on this forum maybe over 10 years ago, wishing and hoping back then for a change back then, and it seems like nothing has changed in terms of new treatments.
My thinking is micro-pigmentation then a transplant once my my hair has fully receded. I heard surgeons say its better to wait for their hairloss to be complete unless you wanted a fucked up looking head. Still, its a long old road on current treatment options, and my self-worth is just holding up. There is no sunny cure, no healing elixir.
I sometimes think, would it not be easier if I was bald or shaved now? Because I've already got to my end point. The torture about when it will happen and how long I will hold onto my hair - that's the agonising part. That's the real torture. At least, if you are shaved, then you're there. Well, in a way you're not, because your hair is still coming out, even it its shaved.
This girl I was dating was looking at my hair last night and sort of jokingly said I was losing my hair.I tried to make nothing of it. She said by 40 I will have lost it or something. She wasn't trying to be harsh, but her facial expression was sort of..disappointed. Like as if to say 'your value is going to plummet'
It made me realise, we have to compensate. We have no f*****g choice. We can either be a bald manlet incel who lays down in despair and dies, or we can at least fight and have something going for us. I've lost count of the amount of women I know who love muscular men to be honest. I know at least having a muscular body and dressing well, and having success, that's going to count for something..
If we can't be 3/3 lets at least be 2/3...Make the best of the cards on the table we still have.
It's a cruel world we live in, that's for sure.