Damn guys!!! Sometimes I just would like to be in front of you and slap you in the face, shouting: "Can´t you see it´s the best time you´r gonna be alive??".
But I know it is not the answer. Depression has a deeper root, some kind of biochemical mechanism gone wrong. I suffered it myself, mixed with anxiety and panic episodes. Thoughts, advices and stuff are of no use.
I never went to have therapy. Sometimes I felt quite bad. Never surrender though. Despite everything, I knew I wasn´t fine that way, I knew I had to climb from the hole. Just think that you´r wasting your life, that if you let yourself into depression you´r losing the show. And also, you´r making your surrounding people feel a lot worse. Probably, they´ll try to make you improve, if you don´t, everybody around you feel helpless. It´s some kind of agony to see a loved one lose his life in a black hole. That´s a reason why they seem unmotivated about you. They still love you (they are here) but they´ve ran out of options. Try to be happy and help them. You´ll see them smile if you do it.
Also there´ll be some motherfuckers that are gonna try take advantage of your situation, specially at work. You´r weak now. They know, they are gonna try to sink you even more. Sometimes they don´t even know the hard they are hitting. When you´re depressed you haven´t got enough weapons to counter-attack their ironic comments or stupid jokes. You´r an easy target. That´s the main reason you´r the center of those comments, not becouse you´r a major human $#iT.
Finally, my best advice to anyone in your situation: do good things for your brain. Mainly take a good sleep habit. Eat properly, a variety of things, stay away from eating fast food frecuently. Eat every day at the same hours. Go outdoors, if you can´t stand human company, go to less frecuented zones and take a walk, for some hours. Talk with strangers, about normal things. Be relaxed and they´ll be too. Practice some sport, it doesn´t need to be hard. I recommend trekking or snowboarding, you got superb mountains there in the USA. Don´t do drugs. Put a focus on your job, try to climb there, work hard. Go out with your girlfriend, having dinner, watch some entertaining movies or shows.Those are naive advices, I know, plenty of times heard. Still, those were the only things that helped me when I was down. And you can have such a hard time when trying to accomplish those perfectly normal things.
Someday, you´ll be waking up and seeing the sun washing your face. And then you´ll know, hairloss was not the reason you were in the hole. By the way, it´s not going to be a one day journey. But battling depression is much better than being depressed. Accept this til you cure yourself. It comes with time.
