Hi there all,
Now that I have reached the maxim of my emotional anxiety, I have no alternative but to spill this out here.
I joined this forum last week. (1.5 weeks ago to be precise).
I must say that I am more than enlightened on multiple fronts, not just in terms of knowledge found in books or manuscripts or diversity of knowledge ranging from a certain field to another. But much more than that.
On an emotional level, I realized that each and every person on this site is figting a battle of their own, a unique battle in their mind and sharing about that on this forum is certainly a relief. I was watching ‘The Collateral Beauty’ yesterday and could draw an analogy with the help group where each one of em’ pour their heart out. What a relief that was. The same is valid for this forum as well. People are really understanding and helpful. That is a rare thing to see in real world and much less to expect beneath the digital walls wherin I am keying-in these letters which are not just letters but conveying a thought and an emotion.
Now how many people in the world would really shout out aloud in the world that there is a way to get rich. i am riding the boat and you may join me. People are selfish, but we have people like ‘macaroni’ on this forum that are gracious enough to do so.
Some of you may argue, what if it was a failure. Well the answer is ‘If’. For believer there are multiple reasons to believe while for a skeptic there are multiple not to.
We have multiple people on the forum sharing their male pattern baldness recovery experience and advicing others when needed. DHTpolice sisenegonan bridgeburn to name a few.
From people who love their job (ideal4head) to people who want a job but dont need one (jeanlucbb).
There are people depressed (most of us) but we eke our pain out here and scurry pass the life. I don’t know anyone of you more than a hole in the wall but really like and appreciate the kind of people who are here (except the few trolls). It’s maybe the pain that mellows the inner monster (competitive) within us that we are more tender to others’ emotions.
Anyway, enough of philosophical rant here. I am ruining the OPs thread.
Coming to the concern of investing in cryptocurrency.
I am farely new to investments but not to cryptocurrency. Farely new to investments as like this account was created 1.5 weeks ago, I got my first job 1.5 years ago. As with most of us, we are pumped up initially and try to do our best; I had a tough role carved out and was not really getting enough time (moreover investment was not on my mind at that time).
Up one year when the appraisal happened I realized that I was a fool to work my *** off.
Working day-night for a paltry sum with no raise was like a slap in the face.
So 6 months ago I started laxing and
looked seriously into investments.
So one year into my job following happened
Almost simultaneously:
1) I realized job sucks. You can’t go on that forever if you really want freedom financially and mentally. Job is just a safety cushion before you find something better.
2) I started laxing off in job and started looking into investments.
3) Now that study was over and fancy of job was gone. I wanted to be in a relationship for the first time. At the same time, I realized how fucked up my hairs have become; that I have male pattern baldness, I felt disgusted to be in a relationship (like someone else pointed earlier on this thread).
4) I have always been a lean and thin guy and thought bulking up. But given how aggresive my male pattern baldness had become I had to resort to anti-androgens and the side effect is muscle loss. This is the conundrum b/w hair and physique despair. Both of em are uncertain. Also loss of libido is another monster.
5) By that time, Of what money I had saved, half the amount of that I had lent to friends. I don’t know how you define friends. But they asked me and since I am the yesman, I agreed.
I have always been like this all my life, a f*****g philanthropist. I would get fucked for the sake of others. Never held any post of high importance but was the goto man and ended up doing others sh*t myself. I would be the one putting all the effort and someone else reaped the benefit. Unlucky one.
Still not learning nothing from it.
In a nutshell, I am not getting that money anytime soon. (Half a years of earned money lent out at zero interest with no certainty of return)
6) At the same time this thread came out.
Though I was looking for male pattern baldness solutions from that moment onwards, I never came across this thread and invested in conventional MF, SIPs and stocks that yield average return at best. If only I had, I certainly would have put some money into it.
I knew about crypto currency, long back in my college days. But then I had no money. When I had some money,I was busy working. When I had worked enough, I had become fool enough to not look beyond conventional investments.
Even knew about and had used dark net earlier - source of all info not available on google.
knowing is not enough.One must apply.one must expand.one must take risk
Someone on this thread mentioned to avoid risk. Risk is a calculated move, one with rationale. If you can afford that risk you must take it.
I beleive when one is young, and you have no one else that reliea on you can risk it more.
“Risk big and risk it if you can afford it”
“And If you can afford it yet don’t risk it, you certainly are leaving a room for guilt to creep in later in your life.”
Living in a 1 bhk 2 bhk 3 bhk is more or less the same for me. But its living in a villa or a palace is what a quantum leap is and you cannot do it by conventional means - a f*****g job like a slave.
Anyway, I am 28 years old and
Right now I am engulfed in a big ‘What If’ thought and feeling.
1) If i was not a yesman
2) If i had stood by what I wanted rather than concede to what others wanted
3) If i told to all those phoney friends to simply f*** off (especially the ones I lent my money to)
4) If i had proposed that girl I liked, I would have been in a relationship and not a virgin atleast
5) If I had reciprocated the advances that other girl made and (part 2 of point 4)
6) If I had stopped caring about what the others think
7) If I had not been a people pleaser
8) If I had not wasted so much time on so many things and habits. Such an atrocious wastefulness of such a precious life.
9) If I had bulked up in my teens and developed my physique
10) If I had countered male pattern baldness earlier than now
We all want to become something more than what we are now. A writer, an actor, teacher or whatever. Even if you dream of having a cottage and just chill by - read books, draw paintings and doze of on the grass under the sparkling sun. And we would like it as soon as we want it. It can only come by the virtue of financial freedom. I too have dreams and you too must have.
Given that I came across this thread today amd deep dives into the cryptocurrency thing
From serious investment perspective. I realized a missed opportunity 6 months ago.
If only I had invested the sum I have lent,
I would have had made enough money I would make working in this job for 2 years.
To put it in other way, I would have bought 2 years of financial freedom. (My current pay is enough for me to start a family with no financial constraint at all).
Infact, since I am not that much of a spender.
If used properly that can amount to 5 years of financial freedom at max and 2 years atleast.
Anyway, I am kinda control freak and this urge of taking control of my life is getting higher.
There are so many variables in life now and they are not in our control (male pattern baldness itself and the sh*t feeling that you are feeling like sh*t ablut yourself. That feeling when you deserve better but you see people, friends, colleagues if not less deserving than you scaling heights. And the garbage of expectation family and society piles upon you. Since you give a damn about what others think and feel, you have no escape).
And I want to take charge of them, the trouble I that the feelings are extreme.
Take charge of following:
1) male pattern baldness: but this mofi is aggressive and I need to go aggresive. I don’t care about sides. I don’t care if it results in loss of libido, shortens my life, i will never be in a relationship, will not be able to perform sexually. f*** it. I need to take charge.
2) Financial Freedom: Job sucks. I need to invest better. Take risk, put all my money into it. Go all in. f*** it. I need to take charge. (For those who have seen Kaiji Anime, I hope it does not turn out to be like that)
3) Love Life: Give point 1, idk. Anyway, f*** it. i need to take charge. Lets start by loving myseld first (not an easy thing when self-abhorrence emanated from deep down)
4) Social Relationship: Enough with phoney people. f*** em all. Tell em No.
5) Habits: To all the ills. amen. I need to take charge.
6) of all the lost time - Take charge
7) of your dreams - Take charge
Now while I write this my head itches reminding me of MOFO male pattern baldness which is getting aggresive. The fate lines in my hands are also itching like telling me - You are gone dude. I have OCD and I have become narcissistic. And BPD makes me feel suicidal.
But f*** it. I have to take charge.
Given that I am 28 yo and working towards a financial freedom for 7 years tilI am 35.(assuming either male pattern baldness will
f*** me up or I will f*** up male pattern baldness, both implies I will be single and considering no one relying on me, I will just focus on my dreams).
I need to chalk out a plan for next 7 years, the seven heaven of financial freedom and assure it’s attained.
“I urge everyone to do so.”
f*** it. I must take charge.
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