Yes, it changed me a lot. I'm a nw6 in my 24, and shaved my head in 22, because it was no use already. My head is badly shaped, flat back of head. Some hair that is left created shitty pattern that is uneven, maybe it would be better to go bald completely. My hair was my strong feature, I looked well. I don't know why, but now I look very bad with hairloss, like an ogre, my appearance became very rough. The back or head has this classical 50 percent loss of hair, so there I look like an old ugly man, I can't even shave it off not to disgust myself, only with a razor it looks a little bit better, but still bad.
First of all, girls. They percieve me as something not for their life, especially young. The younger, the more severe alienation. Many of them don't look into my eyes, which tells pretty much how bad I look. They can say "hello" and then look into the ground. People just don't want to mess with somebody who looks bad. Girls don't smile to me, and this is a big contrast to what was before, when I didn't need to do anything, they liked my appearance. I just see how girls are mad about appearance, it's a god in this biological war. And this is right: in the long term, for survival of humanity not your abilities are important, but how you look, that shows your health. I also don't have strong facial features, I would never say "this man is pretty" if would see myself as another person. So, this war is lost. I didn't hear "you look good" for years already, and most probably won't hear again ever. I just switched to study of my profession that I enjoy, some hobbies. My friends... I have some, but a lot I lost, and I know they are picky about appearance, maybe they are idiots. Anyway, many of them were self-centered and felt superior to me, which is wrong, only idiots can behave like this.
I started to hate people, a little, but I know with years it will worsen up. The years pass, and I see how fast they go. I know almost for sure: I will be a single 30 y.o bald man, with a good profession, knowledge, but ugly. I hate them because of this unfairness, I know there's no such a thing in the nature, but I don't care. When I see my 18 y.o brother, and 2 girls sit in his room everyday and talk bullshit, and he is so stupid, I know a lot more, I study, but this all is nothing. Not a girl wiill love me. He has a long hair that he is proud of. This is normal, my life is not normal.
When I need to wear a hat, I think:wow, what a feeling, I can look like a normal guy, and I feel a minute relief, and this is when I realise how hairloss pressures me, everyday on public.
It stole my girls, and what's worse, hope for them.
It stole my appearance, I look bad and like an old man.
But I still enjoy my life, especially my work. I can concentrate, study, make some sports activities. But this is pretty much a loss, considering that i want a normal girl like any living creature, and I suffer from it much.
