I am a little worried about you. You've been stuck on this point for a while and you say yourself, it's driving you crazy. You need to figure out a way to move forwards and I don't just mean settling on an approach to what you can achieve best hair wise but mentally too. Before you came on here, you were in a better mental state imo. You were making more jokes and what will be will be hair wise attitude, now you're worse. You've become obsessive about this. Keep yourself busy and interested in other aspects of life as hard as it is. Maintain a buzz cut with a few k grafts, that's what you're leaning towards and it's easy to do. I know all this is as hard as fcuk, but stay strong brother and don't make it harder for yourself to stand up and enjoy life. We need your jokes too