I Lost My Virginity While Traveling (finally)

[Exodus2011]

I'm sorry, but I don't mean Elliot Rodger. I mean "emergency room", you should go to an ER to try and get rapid help, and they might hook you up with longer-term assistance such as social workers. Rodger actually did need to be institutionalized, as he posed a violent threat. I just looked up the rules, you can only be locked up in the USA if you're considered a physical threat.

What concerns me is that your tone has been in decline for several months now, and that's worrisome. You're more antagonistic and defensive than you used to be. That can happen to everybody, we all have fluctuations that can last weeks or months, but yours has been going on for a while. There is also little reason for you to be defensive here as you do not draw significant abuse from the other members of the forum (with a few exceptions). You should be feeling safe here, yet you can get defensive. You also used to talk more about subjects that weren't related to lookism/hair/incelism.

You're living a NEET lifestyle, and that comes with the risk of mental degeneracy. Whatever is giving you pleasure here and there today (art, video games, movies, food, music, etc) may not give you pleasure in the future, and then you'll be at greater risk.

ok well with this post its obvious you weren't trying to shut me up. idk you're right i've been having this weird almost OCD lately about annoying and offensive things people have said to me. i sometimes can't stop thinking about mean stuff thats been said to me, and even the tinest things that i disagree with people about. i have a stupid addiction to looking up infuriating things just to try to mentally come up with arguments against them. mainly with feminism and rampant incel hate

but i never ever say anything to anyone who insults me so i've promised myself i would speak up, at least on the internet FFS, theres no physical threat here. i'd rather go without the regret you know?

also i've been thinking how i have no refuge , as i've already stated elsewhere theres GODDAMN NO WHERE i'm not inferior. normies? nah i'm bald and less manly. 4chan and reddit cucks? nope, theyre adjusted and at least have decent hair and twink game a lot. other baldcels? nope, theyre more manly. JFL.

man i swear i just wish i was too aspie to care about being an inferior goddamn loser. i've been staying with my dad recently and tried venting to him about it but he is a huge f***** low standards aspie who is ok with dating nasty dark low quality asian women and being an ugly inferior. he can't even get with the smart east asians, he has to go for the ugly dumb southeast asians. its so sad and pathetic

lol socializing is so f*****g difficult guys like me, maybe thats why i've been so unsuccessful trying to connect with others on my garbage tier, like @CaptainForehead or some others i've found in the incel sphere. theyre usually just busy coping as well, and probably have had bad experiences with socializing

 

[Afro_Vacancy]

ok well with this post its obvious you weren't trying to shut me up. idk you're right i've been having this weird almost OCD lately about annoying and offensive things people have said to me. i sometimes can't stop thinking about mean stuff thats been said to me, and even the tinest things that i disagree with people about. i have a stupid addiction to looking up infuriating things just to try to mentally come up with arguments against them. mainly with feminism and rampant incel hate

but i never ever say anything to anyone who insults me so i've promised myself i would speak up, at least on the internet FFS, theres no physical threat here. i'd rather go without the regret you know?

also i've been thinking how i have no refuge , as i've already stated elsewhere theres GODDAMN NO WHERE i'm not inferior. normies? nah i'm bald and less manly. 4chan and reddit cucks? nope, theyre adjusted and at least have decent hair and twink game a lot. other baldcels? nope, theyre more manly. JFL.

man i swear i just wish i was too aspie to care about being an inferior goddamn loser. i've been staying with my dad recently and tried venting to him about it but he is a huge f***** low standards aspie who is ok with dating nasty dark low quality asian women and being an ugly inferior. he can't even get with the smart east asians, he has to go for the ugly dumb southeast asians. its so sad and pathetic

lol socializing is so f*****g difficult guys like me, maybe thats why i've been so unsuccessful trying to connect with others on my garbage tier, like @CaptainForehead or some others i've found in the incel sphere. theyre usually just busy coping as well, and probably have had bad experiences with socializing

I can't speak for your dad, I don't know him. With respect to the women he's with, imo the only thing that matters is if he likes them and if they like him. If they're genuinely happy together, then they're not settling. It's also the case that the community is a little damaged here, as we're currently depopulated. It's less of a refuge for all of us, as there are fewer posters. We're not even getting a joke stream from macaroni and Dench57 anymore.

I would hope that you can salvage what you can by seeking emergency help, which might help (I don't know). There are no guarantees in life. Regardless of your social status and relative worth, you need to be able to be happy and to extract meaning from the world.

 

[Exodus2011]

I can't speak for your dad, I don't know him. With respect to the women he's with, imo the only thing that matters is if he likes them and if they like him. If they're genuinely happy together, then they're not settling. It's also the case that the community is a little damaged here, as we're currently depopulated. It's less of a refuge for all of us, as there are fewer posters. We're not even getting a joke stream from macaroni and Dench57 anymore.

I would hope that you can salvage what you can by seeking emergency help, which might help (I don't know). There are no guarantees in life. Regardless of your social status and relative worth, you need to be able to be happy and to extract meaning from the world.

i mean theres no communities where i'm not inferior. i wanna form a little ultimate incel wizard club or something but theyre usually too busy coping , i guess i can't blame them tho. wish there was a place where you could upload your picture and you cant join unless you are rated 4/10 or below. i'm scared of going on wizardchan and finding fake rotters like on goddamn lookism

 

[shookwun]

anyone else still open this thread with the idea in the back of there head that OP lost his virginity to a civilian?

ok well with this post its obvious you weren't trying to shut me up. idk you're right i've been having this weird almost OCD lately about annoying and offensive things people have said to me. i sometimes can't stop thinking about mean stuff thats been said to me, and even the tinest things that i disagree with people about. i have a stupid addiction to looking up infuriating things just to try to mentally come up with arguments against them. mainly with feminism and rampant incel hate

but i never ever say anything to anyone who insults me so i've promised myself i would speak up, at least on the internet FFS, theres no physical threat here. i'd rather go without the regret you know?

also i've been thinking how i have no refuge , as i've already stated elsewhere theres GODDAMN NO WHERE i'm not inferior. normies? nah i'm bald and less manly. 4chan and reddit cucks? nope, theyre adjusted and at least have decent hair and twink game a lot. other baldcels? nope, theyre more manly. JFL.

man i swear i just wish i was too aspie to care about being an inferior goddamn loser. i've been staying with my dad recently and tried venting to him about it but he is a huge f***** low standards aspie who is ok with dating nasty dark low quality asian women and being an ugly inferior. he can't even get with the smart east asians, he has to go for the ugly dumb southeast asians. its so sad and pathetic

lol socializing is so f*****g difficult guys like me, maybe thats why i've been so unsuccessful trying to connect with others on my garbage tier, like @CaptainForehead or some others i've found in the incel sphere. theyre usually just busy coping as well, and probably have had bad experiences with socializing

 

[CaptainForehead]

... i've been so unsuccessful trying to connect with others on my garbage tier, like @CaptainForehead ...

 

[CaptainForehead]

On this topic, I've been having dreams about a couple of ladies in the establishments I visited. Not super sexual. The thing which features most, by far, is their smiles. I miss those smiles the most. Followed by being able to gently caress their faces. When I next get a chance to visit, I think I'll just sit in a corner and watch their pretty faces.

 

[Exodus2011]

On this topic, I've been having dreams about a couple of ladies in the establishments I visited. Not super sexual. The thing which features most, by far, is their smiles. I miss those smiles the most. Followed by being able to gently caress their faces. When I next get a chance to visit, I think I'll just sit in a corner and watch their pretty faces.

LOOKS ARE FOR VALIDATION AND SOCIAL STATUS NOT SEX

BEING HOT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ACTUALLY HAVING SEX

i havent thought about actual sex in years, my fantasies revolve around the idea of girls checking me out and falling in love with me

one of my primary fantasies is being a hot singer with a romantic voice like rob thonas from matchbox 20, and a crowd of girls falling in love with me lol

its mainly low iqs who dont care about looks and just go "hurr durr i wanna fuk hurrrr". these types also tend to have no standards

 

[shookwun]

LOOKS ARE FOR VALIDATION AND SOCIAL STATUS NOT SEX

BEING HOT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ACTUALLY HAVING SEX

i havent thought about actual sex in years, my fantasies revolve around the idea of girls checking me out and falling in love with me

one of my primary fantasies is being a hot singer with a romantic voice like rob thonas from matchbox 20, and a crowd of girls falling in love with me lol

its mainly low iqs who dont care about looks and just go "hurr durr i wanna fuk hurrrr". these types also tend to have no standards

I unno.

Not giving a sh*t about looks, and being delusional can be a blessing,. I see a lot of guys like this that put effort in pulling, despite not knowing how sub trash they are and eventually they succeed.

 

[Calchas]

i havent thought about actual sex in years, my fantasies revolve around the idea of girls checking me out and falling in love with me

So,in your fantasies you're an attention wh*** chad,and today you disliked my posts for saying that we're all attention w****s.

If you look like sh*t and a girl falls in love with you,it's more essential than falling in love with you for being hot.

 

[CopeForLife]

LOOKS ARE FOR VALIDATION AND SOCIAL STATUS NOT SEX

BEING HOT >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ACTUALLY HAVING SEX

i havent thought about actual sex in years, my fantasies revolve around the idea of girls checking me out and falling in love with me

one of my primary fantasies is being a hot singer with a romantic voice like rob thonas from matchbox 20, and a crowd of girls falling in love with me lol

its mainly low iqs who dont care about looks and just go "hurr durr i wanna fuk hurrrr". these types also tend to have no standards

this x1000

sex is boring and overrated

validation and being a mog machine is everything

 

[shookwun]

this x1000

sex is boring and overrated

validation and being a mog machine is everything

sex is great when its with a women you actually want to be with.

Sex is sh*t when you are f*****g a plain jane you are not even into. to many times have I felt this way.

But when you have sex with a dime hottie with a good personality, it's the best feeling.



Which is why escorts are a waste of f*****g time. It leaves me feeling empty... worse then f*****g a plain jane.

 

[Calchas]

sex is boring and overrated

What do you know about it?

validation and being a mog machine is everything

Another attention wh***...Wasn't you who was accusing @Georgie today for being an attention wh***???
You are laughable people!

 

[CopeForLife]

What do you know about it?

Another attention wh***...Wasn't you who was accusing @Georgie today for being an attention wh***???
You are laughable people!

another imbecile put on ignore list

 

[CopeForLife]

sex is great when its with a women you actually want to be with.

Sex is sh*t when you are f*****g a plain jane you are not even into. to many times have I felt this way.

But when you have sex with a dime hottie with a good personality, it's the best feeling.



Which is why escorts are a waste of f*****g time. It leaves me feeling empty... worse then f*****g a plain jane.

Idk I was only with plain janes and attractive escorts. Plain janes nah.

Each to their own, anyway.

 

[Calchas]

another imbecile put on ignore list

I guess reality and truth are also in your ignore list.

 

[Exodus2011]

Idk I was only with plain janes and attractive escorts. Plain janes nah.

Each to their own, anyway.

you had sex with civilians before?

and lol being a musician isnt bein an attention wh***, its a natural appropriate setting

attention w****s look for attention in inappropriate places

 

[CopeForLife]

you had sex with civilians before?

and lol being a musician isnt bein an attention wh***, its a natural appropriate setting

attention w****s look for attention in inappropriate places

Yes I had but they were neither attractive neither ugly. Zero emotions from these encounters.

 

[Exodus2011]

Yes I had but they were neither attractive neither ugly. Zero emotions from these encounters.

dam lol i thought you were incel

where u meet them? how old were you when losing V?

 

[shookwun]

dam lol i thought you were incel

where u meet them? how old were you when losing V?

wizard ivirgincels are some what rare.

However, dudes who haven't gotten laid in 1 year 2 year..... are incels 100%

 

[CopeForLife]

dam lol i thought you were incel

where u meet them? how old were you when losing V?

I lost when I was 21 or 22 with a hooker. Next month I had sex with some girl from a club in another city being completely blackouted and don't even know how she looked. I woke up with a condoms around and no sign of a girl, LOL. I know how fucked it sounds like. I had sex with a few civils after and I'm completely dry for a year and half. Not even a single verbal interaction with both male or female, but LDARing instead.