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Death by a dozen cuts.
I grew up in an abusive and low-income home, I attended a very religious school and thus arrived at college very sheltered, and I also had a chip on my shoulder. Subsequent to this, I was average-looking at best (you've seen my pics) and oftentimes I was actually significantly overweight (until two years ago) so my looks were subpar. I didn't know how to groom myself, for example how to dress properly. I have mild autism and I don't read people well, though know I'm significantly better at reading people. I also have had moderate erectile dysfunction for many years. That truncated the few opportunities that came through by mid 20s when my social skills had improved enough to interact with women. Most of that is better now, but I have a lifetime of inexperience to catch up on.
Many of my better features (self-awareness, intelligence, dark humor, empathy, good cooking skills, etc) only manifest themselves after an extended period of interaction. They can't be used to break the ice.
dude, maybe I haven't been listening to well, but I didn't know all these things about you. You are a true warrior man. Admirable as hell. Good for you for being so level headed and working continually to improve yourself.