Oh god, don't remind me. Crown was a killer. Not to mention a decimated frontal third with shock loss (as was post hair transplant) and a patchy weaker looking donor area post hair transplant. Highly depressing and I wore a hat as much as I could. Every time I took it off I felt sad, inferior, weak, uglier. I had become kind of invisible imo. Even having good skin, tight body, clothes and face wasn't enough to counter the affects of unhealthiness due to the hair. Was disfiguring my appearance. It wasn't my imagination, I had declined significantly from how my hair was before and I don't have BDD. I didn't want to interact with anyone except close friends. Plenty of lonely walks in woods, music on and saying to myself "it will get better soon enough, relax."
I always say, keep growing the hair till it's no longer possible - it allows us to mask our hair loss and appear fullhead. Truly buzzing only looks aesthetic with no Androgenetic Alopecia and with the usual tick boxes. The Androgenetic Alopecia is the problem for me mainly, I looked so bad.
If my hair looks thick and buzzed down it looked bad, well the people who appear diffuse grown out, will have an actual nightmare with a buzz.
You have the same saving grace I do: you will get better and back to full head in a few months.
Damn, hit me right in the feels.
Going on long walks at night around 8-10PM from the gym home, listening to music and visualizing my life in preparation for the mind, and having to go full reclusive mode on situations, and people that I would normally like to be present for. The point in which we inhibit our selves from exposing our deepest, and burdened secret.
It was a hard time in my life going through that first operation. reminding myself, eventually everything will get better, which it did after living in my head, and in solitary for a good three-five months.
A lot of people don't realize how stressful, and exerting a hair transplant is once you go through with it. All your insecurities are thrown at you over night, and you are overwhelmed. That whole idea of returning back to life the next week goes out the door because your hair is in shock, scalp is red, irritated, and tight. Start to look worse better you look better.
We spend so much time trying to hide our identity, and state of appearance then everything is thrown on the table and we are left empty. The entire process behind a transplant is extremely stressful on the mind, and it takes awhile to recover, and receive appreciable results.
the androgenic Alopecia is entirely the problem, and it isn't evident until someone does a full shave. if our hair looked like this after three weeks 0 guard, it would be nothing. Uniform density, and has that terminal thickness distributed all over.