Im with you on that one, I got used to it with time but I have unhealthy cope that works for years now, which is: if it gets too bad i can always kill myself. Not good coping mechanism i know but works for 7 years already (even unrelated with hairloss). Thats what im saying to myself now if I lose my fertility lol, im gonna rope and thats it.
Thats how im able to enjoy life tbh, because I always have exit strategy.
Ok, then I see that you feel exactly the same as I do. I also repeat these words to myself every day. The only difference is that I cannot enjoy my life anymore.
I've always been a good looking, vigorous guy, had many friends and a great life. I have dated a lot of woman, at parties they were the first to approach me and talk to me.
One day I noticed that my hairs thinned, started to gets thinner behind my transplanted ones. Styling them was a nightmare. Strong wind was a nightmare, that’s why I buzzed them to 3mm. I had to use hair fibers etc. then I have lost all my confidence in one day, my depression started... I stopped taking care of myself, stopped meeting with friends, going to parties. I even stopped washing myself because anyway I am going to look like a sh*t with bald, scarred head + transplanted hairline.
I still have A LOT of miniaturized hairs as you can see on the photo, they are not dead, however every month they loose thickness and pigment and they become more and more thinner. Few years ago they were almost black, now they are like blonde in direct light they looks yellow. They wont f*****g improve on drugs like dutasteride, finasteride, minoxidil, Bica mono etc.
I almost already feel like I lost all my hairs, fertility, masculinity, health.
After using that all sh*t I lost all my muscles (went from shredded to skinny fat), im not producing sperm anymore, I lost even more hairs and everyday I feel tired like an old man. Its impossible to enjoy the life like that.
So if I end up as a bald woman then see you in the next life if there is any.