Exploring The Hormonal Route. Hair=life.

Mr. Slap Head

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Im with you on that one, I got used to it with time but I have unhealthy cope that works for years now, which is: if it gets too bad i can always kill myself. Not good coping mechanism i know but works for 7 years already (even unrelated with hairloss). Thats what im saying to myself now if I lose my fertility lol, im gonna rope and thats it.
Thats how im able to enjoy life tbh, because I always have exit strategy.
Nah motherfucker you ain’t doing that under my watch
 

dar3k

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Im with you on that one, I got used to it with time but I have unhealthy cope that works for years now, which is: if it gets too bad i can always kill myself. Not good coping mechanism i know but works for 7 years already (even unrelated with hairloss). Thats what im saying to myself now if I lose my fertility lol, im gonna rope and thats it.
Thats how im able to enjoy life tbh, because I always have exit strategy.
Ok, then I see that you feel exactly the same as I do. I also repeat these words to myself every day. The only difference is that I cannot enjoy my life anymore.

I've always been a good looking, vigorous guy, had many friends and a great life. I have dated a lot of woman, at parties they were the first to approach me and talk to me.

One day I noticed that my hairs thinned, started to gets thinner behind my transplanted ones. Styling them was a nightmare. Strong wind was a nightmare, that’s why I buzzed them to 3mm. I had to use hair fibers etc. then I have lost all my confidence in one day, my depression started... I stopped taking care of myself, stopped meeting with friends, going to parties. I even stopped washing myself because anyway I am going to look like a sh*t with bald, scarred head + transplanted hairline.

I still have A LOT of miniaturized hairs as you can see on the photo, they are not dead, however every month they loose thickness and pigment and they become more and more thinner. Few years ago they were almost black, now they are like blonde in direct light they looks yellow. They wont f*****g improve on drugs like dutasteride, finasteride, minoxidil, Bica mono etc.


I almost already feel like I lost all my hairs, fertility, masculinity, health.
After using that all sh*t I lost all my muscles (went from shredded to skinny fat), im not producing sperm anymore, I lost even more hairs and everyday I feel tired like an old man. Its impossible to enjoy the life like that.
So if I end up as a bald woman then see you in the next life if there is any.
 

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MylovelyHair

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After using that all sh*t I lost all my muscles (went from shredded to skinny fat), im not producing sperm anymore, I lost even more hairs and everyday I feel tired like an old man. Its impossible to enjoy the life like that.
Yea i am exactly the same like you describe!
 
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MylovelyHair

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if it gets too bad i can always kill myself.
Bro i have the exact same mechanism ,if something bad happens like lose my hair which is the worst case scenario besides get blind i can always jump of my balcony which is 5th floor!!I am taking Anafranil Abilify and Seroxat so i can live without the depression and mental agony of hairloss and still i am suicidal
 

dar3k

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The only way If HRT doesnt work is to suicide or make SMP, keep diet, get yourself tattooed, take some steroids and go to f*****g gym. At least you wont look like a trash
 
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MylovelyHair

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System looks good only If you have a strong sides/back/temple peaks. My hairs are fine and thin as sh*t + Its expensive (piece and maintance)

Im wearing f*****g hatcel in my house I even sleep with that sh*t on.
Some times I wish I could do it if you know what I mean! and I don't mean castration
 

GRme11

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Bro i have the exact same mechanism ,if something bad happens like lose my hair which is the worst case scenario besides get blind i can always jump of my balcony which is 5th floor!!I am taking Anafranil Abilify and Seroxat so i can live without the depression and mental agony of hairloss and still i am suicidal
So, what's the point of all these antidepressants, then? How would they help us when we desire something completely different? I still can't understand. I am wondering because I am depressive as well, but I can't see an escape from this loop, even with or without antidepressants. What will exactly antidepressants provide? What will they provide if we are trying extreme treatments and they have a chance of failure, feeling more depressive as a result? It's unbearable. This curse is hunting us. It's so sad. I am just trying to understand because I am deteriorating mentally.
 

dar3k

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So, what's the point of all these antidepressants, then? How would they help us when we desire something completely different? I still can't understand. I am wondering because I am depressive as well, but I can't see an escape from this loop, even with or without antidepressants. What will exactly antidepressants provide? What will they provide if we are trying extreme treatments and they have a chance of failure, feeling more depressive as a result? It's unbearable. This curse is hunting us. It's so sad. I am just trying to understand because I am deteriorating mentally.
We must understand one thing. There is no cure, you can only delay it. Sooner or later we will be bald.

And someone who believe that Pyralutamide will be a magic candy... is wrong.

I understood that the only way of not being depressed is f*****g suicide, really.

Many people say that after the age of 40/50 hair will no longer be important, bullshit.

The only cure is to change your gender FOREVER. And even that won't give you a 100% chance to cure that disease, that sh*t, that poison.
 
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Almas_NW0

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Most of us here have way better hair than average balding guy. Its just that we are hyperfixiated on one thing. Like my nose isnt straight when smiling after jaw surgery and one girl pointed it out to me because she has the same problem and is suicidal because of butched jaw surgery in general. To me problem is so minor i would not even fix it if surgeon didnt offer it for free since I cant breathe properly so its a health concern again.
Thats why im saying ssri can cure your agony, by changing you perspective on life. Nothing seems like a problem anymore and you start doing productive sh*t again. And you are more likely to accept your hairloss condition, aka have more of “it is what it is” mindset and not “my life is not worth living for another second” mindset lol. While i agree hrt is super effective you are just as likely to go insane just by doing that for rest of your life then by accepting that you will not have your juvenile density and hair anymore and continue to live your life.
If noah didnt go back to hrt again you know it gets tiring after while to cycle that sh*t.
Baldness is scary not only by the condition of the hair at the present time. It is scary because if you don't stop it, it will certainly get worse. You predict that you will become bald in the near future.
And being bald can be very critical to appearance. It literally disfigures someone because of the inappropriate shape of the face and skull. Nobody wants to ruin their appearance. This is absolutely normal, and there is no excessive fixation, dysmorphophobia and other deviations in this.
 

cetm-419

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Im with you on that one, I got used to it with time but I have unhealthy cope that works for years now, which is: if it gets too bad i can always kill myself. Not good coping mechanism i know but works for 7 years already (even unrelated with hairloss). Thats what im saying to myself now if I lose my fertility lol, im gonna rope and thats it.
Thats how im able to enjoy life tbh, because I always have exit strategy.
a man's only true free choice is whether to take his own life. That's from a philosopher speaking about free will.

There is nothing sinful or shameful about making that choice, of course it has a lot of consequences on your family... My uncle took his own life, so I know first hand what that does to a family.

on the other hand, Einstein said about the purpose of life, in a sense of meaning: The man who regards his own life and that of his fellow creatures as meaningless is not merely unhappy but hardly fit for life.
 
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