I have never posted here but I really want to rant.
I started losing my hair when I was a 15.5 years old girl. within 1 year half of my hair volume was gone and my scalp started showing through, how unlucky is that? I didn't do good research until this year and I'm almost 21, on the Ludwig classification system I'm in the first category which looks ok, a narrow part line which looks normal in dim light, but how should I be happy that I'm Ludwig 1 if I look awful under bright lights and I have a good deal of scalp exposed? I cover my hair with a scarf almost every day, and in the gym I wear a head band that hides my frontal thinning. I can't use concealer because it would require daily shampooing to apply minoxidil which will make my hair dry and I can't afford having dry thin hair.
I'm lucky for at least being able to get away with it in normal lighting, but I feel like my identity has been taken away from me, I worshiped my hair before it started falling, it was curly and thick and very shiny. I'm using stuff to treat it but I feel stuck because it all won't come back and I can't go out without my hair covered when I know I'll be in places with strong lights or sun. I have a very thin ponytail, can't grow my hair long as I used to do before because it is see-through. I know lots of girls who have FPHL worse than me at the gym and university but at the same time there are many many women who are 40 something with more hair than I do, and it makes me sad that I don't have that too. I'm not worried much about guys, I look ok and I still get asked out blah blah blah but I don't feel like I'm the real me without my hair. and due to economical situations I'll never be able to afford Tsuji in a million years, and if Shiseido release next year or the one after I won't afford it any time soon maybe 5-6 years or something. I get panic attacks and I have dreams that I have a full head of hair rather than having dreams about my ex who's been with me long-term and we just broke up lol. I don't know what to do if the current treatments fail me, I have a high tendency to have suicidal thoughts once things go down hill as I did before minoxidil started giving some results. Wow that's a lot of whining there! Hair loss sucks big time, and life sucks too.
I started losing my hair when I was a 15.5 years old girl. within 1 year half of my hair volume was gone and my scalp started showing through, how unlucky is that? I didn't do good research until this year and I'm almost 21, on the Ludwig classification system I'm in the first category which looks ok, a narrow part line which looks normal in dim light, but how should I be happy that I'm Ludwig 1 if I look awful under bright lights and I have a good deal of scalp exposed? I cover my hair with a scarf almost every day, and in the gym I wear a head band that hides my frontal thinning. I can't use concealer because it would require daily shampooing to apply minoxidil which will make my hair dry and I can't afford having dry thin hair.
I'm lucky for at least being able to get away with it in normal lighting, but I feel like my identity has been taken away from me, I worshiped my hair before it started falling, it was curly and thick and very shiny. I'm using stuff to treat it but I feel stuck because it all won't come back and I can't go out without my hair covered when I know I'll be in places with strong lights or sun. I have a very thin ponytail, can't grow my hair long as I used to do before because it is see-through. I know lots of girls who have FPHL worse than me at the gym and university but at the same time there are many many women who are 40 something with more hair than I do, and it makes me sad that I don't have that too. I'm not worried much about guys, I look ok and I still get asked out blah blah blah but I don't feel like I'm the real me without my hair. and due to economical situations I'll never be able to afford Tsuji in a million years, and if Shiseido release next year or the one after I won't afford it any time soon maybe 5-6 years or something. I get panic attacks and I have dreams that I have a full head of hair rather than having dreams about my ex who's been with me long-term and we just broke up lol. I don't know what to do if the current treatments fail me, I have a high tendency to have suicidal thoughts once things go down hill as I did before minoxidil started giving some results. Wow that's a lot of whining there! Hair loss sucks big time, and life sucks too.
I think it's devastating for a greater percentage of women compared to men, but for all of us who are struggling to cope I think we suffer the same way. I would have been a bit less frustrated if I had started losing hair when I was actually getting old not at 15 freaking years old though
