I Lost My Virginity While Traveling (finally)

[inmyhead]

I'm going to be mister negative guy here. I don't understand, what's so big deal with being virgin?
Why even press yourself so hard? Tell me, what has changed since you lost your virginity? Nothing did. You put too much value on vain things.

 

[shookwun]

Just out of curiosity, why is it such a struggle for you to get and stay hard?

its common among incels, and those with anxiety and self-esteem issues.

Decades of chronic masterbation to p**rn
Racing thoughts through your head about being able to perform
Body all tense, and not being able to relax.

equals

ED

 

[sadila]

I have many many stories, maybe one day I will share those too.

please make that day today

 

[Afro_Vacancy]

I'm going to be mister negative guy here. I don't understand, what's so big deal with being virgin?
Why even press yourself so hard? Tell me, what has changed since you lost your virginity? Nothing did. You put too much value on vain things.

There is no substitute for real-life experience.

Reading about experiences, intelligence, and reasoning ability are at their best when they're augmenting that which is learned from experience. However, if they are operating on their own without guidance from reality then they will likely only lead to nonsensical conclusions and expectations.

Who old are you bro?

I thought you were over 30 but im glad for..its time to embrace the hedonistic lifestyle..

34.

So this was in Canada or Australia? Very compelling read, actually. I’m glad you have the courage to share. I worked in the sex industry as a “dancer” when I was 19 and really going through a “everyone can get f**ked” phase of my life where I was doing pretty reckless things. You are right about the mind-body disconnect. You have to, because not all men are so sweet and gentle. In the end my conscience couldn’t take it anymore, and often in clubs, borderline abuse (I say borderline because it would be abuse in any other setting) occurs every day from men who believe that because they paid to see you naked, they paid to do whatever they like with you.. like a rag doll. My body became a product, and I paid a price for that physically and mentalky. I have many many stories, maybe one day I will share those too.

This was in Australia.

Did you just imply that I'm sweet and gentle? I think that you did Thank you.

I'm sorry about the price you paid and thank you for sharing. It's more or less what I expected, actually. The woman that I was with made it clear that she wasn't enthusiastic about gifts (she accepts them but kind of reluctantly), I did not ask her why. I assume that it's because many men might feel a sense of ownership after giving a gift.

I'm happy you got such an understanding and helpful sex worker, and that it turned out to be a positive experience

Since it turned out to be positive experience, I'll assume I played a part in this decision with my stories. I'll also assume a tiny part in your future life successes (butterfly effect)

I too find playing with hair fun (thanks to Pas for this tip), and also just touching their delicate faces lightly with fingers.

Were you able to orgasm?

In your previous posts, you mentioned that ED pills don't help you, but it seems in this case it did.

What was the cost of the 90 minute session?

Yes, thank you for sharing as well.

The going rate for 90 minutes was $AU 500-1000 for all of the sex workers listed on the site I used. I mentioned to her that her rate was probably going to go up overtime as she built up a clientele, she told me that she did not want to increase her rate as she wanted to stay accessible, for example to handicapped people.

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I really enjoy kissing neck, ears, eyelids, forehead, etc.

Just out of curiosity, why is it such a struggle for you to get and stay hard?

I don't know. Doctors don't know either. It hit me spontaneously when I was 23, as in I changed overnight from getting spontaneous, rapid, and very hard erections to needing significant stimulation for mediocre erections. Could be PIED, a venous leak, or something else.

 

[Georgie]

There is no substitute for real-life experience.

Reading about experiences, intelligence, and reasoning ability are at their best when they're augmenting that which is learned from experience. However, if they are operating on their own without guidance from reality then they will likely only lead to nonsensical conclusions and expectations.


34.


This was in Australia.

Did you just imply that I'm sweet and gentle? I think that you did Thank you.

I'm sorry about the price you paid and thank you for sharing. It's more or less what I expected, actually. The woman that I was with made it clear that she wasn't enthusiastic about gifts (she accepts them but kind of reluctantly), I did not ask her why. I assume that it's because many men might feel a sense of ownership after giving a gift.


Yes, thank you for sharing as well.

The going rate for 90 minutes was $AU 500-1000 for all of the sex workers listed on the site I used. I mentioned to her that her rate was probably going to go up overtime as she built up a clientele, she told me that she did not want to increase her rate as she wanted to stay accessible, for example to handicapped people.

********

I really enjoy kissing neck, ears, eyelids, forehead, etc.



I don't know. Doctors don't know either. It hit me spontaneously when I was 23, as in I changed overnight from getting spontaneous, rapid, and very hard erections to needing significant stimulation for mediocre erections. Could be PIED, a venous leak, or something else.

May I ask why you were a virgin up to this point? Never had a girlfriend/the opportunity or was it a life choice?

 

[sadila]

I don't know. Doctors don't know either. It hit me spontaneously when I was 23, as in I changed overnight from getting spontaneous, rapid, and very hard erections to needing significant stimulation for mediocre erections. Could be PIED, a venous leak, or something else.

Fina ?

 

[Afro_Vacancy]

May I ask why you were a virgin up to this point? Never had a girlfriend/the opportunity or was it a life choice?

Death by a dozen cuts.

I grew up in an abusive and low-income home, I attended a very religious school and thus arrived at college very sheltered, and I also had a chip on my shoulder. Subsequent to this, I was average-looking at best (you've seen my pics) and oftentimes I was actually significantly overweight (until two years ago) so my looks were subpar. I didn't know how to groom myself, for example how to dress properly. I have mild autism and I don't read people well, though know I'm significantly better at reading people. I also have had moderate erectile dysfunction for many years. That truncated the few opportunities that came through by mid 20s when my social skills had improved enough to interact with women. Most of that is better now, but I have a lifetime of inexperience to catch up on.

Many of my better features (self-awareness, intelligence, dark humor, empathy, good cooking skills, etc) only manifest themselves after an extended period of interaction. They can't be used to break the ice.

 

[Georgie]

@Afro_Vacancy yes, you do sound sweet by the sounds. In my expedience, the ones who seem to have lacked a female touch or attention always are. Almost timid, but appreciative.
My expeicne probably had a lot to do with my reasons for getting into stripping. This woman you describe sounds like she is empowered by her work, whereas I did it because I didn’t care about anything or anyone anymore, particularly myself. For me, I’d lost my virginity, technically when I was 3 years old. When I was 18, I was raped in my sleep. Then again that year, I was locked in someone’s house.. and it happened. My entire worth as a female had been eaten away by men who took what they wanted from me. I developed anorexia as a teen because all I ever saw was an abomination, and to fix that I felt I had to fix my appearance. Similarly, when I was 19, I had just come out of a physically abusive relationship, I didn’t have a job, I hated everything, and I thought “what do I do with myself? What am I good for?”, the first response in my mind was “giving your body away”. So I did, and I allowed men to degrade me daily, because it’s what I felt I was worth. I did however learn a lot from those expeicnes, and became somehow more resilient and street-smart from having to constantly watch my back for men who would follow/stalk me. I’m now kind of an inaffectionate b**ch. It’s sad how it’s ended now. I wish I could say I walked through the fire and came out stronger.

 

[Georgie]

Death by a dozen cuts.

I grew up in an abusive and low-income home, I attended a very religious school and thus arrived at college very sheltered, and I also had a chip on my shoulder. Subsequent to this, I was average-looking at best (you've seen my pics) and oftentimes I was actually significantly overweight (until two years ago) so my looks were subpar. I didn't know how to groom myself, for example how to dress properly. I have mild autism and I don't read people well, though know I'm significantly better at reading people. I also have had moderate erectile dysfunction for many years. That truncated the few opportunities that came through by mid 20s when my social skills had improved enough to interact with women. Most of that is better now, but I have a lifetime of inexperience to catch up on.

Many of my better features (self-awareness, intelligence, dark humor, empathy, good cooking skills, etc) only manifest themselves after an extended period of interaction. They can't be used to break the ice.

I have Aspergers too. I’m sorry you have had such a rough time in life. I understand what it’s like to feel like the universe wants you you to fail. I hope you feel enlivened by your experience x

 

[Calchas]

I’m now kind of an inaffectionate b**ch.

Are you willingly following the path of inaffectionism or you believe that it is inherited damage that can't be undone?

 

[CaptainForehead]

So this was in Canada or Australia? Very compelling read, actually. I’m glad you have the courage to share. I worked in the sex industry as a “dancer” when I was 19 and really going through a “everyone can get f**ked” phase of my life where I was doing pretty reckless things. You are right about the mind-body disconnect. You have to, because not all men are so sweet and gentle. In the end my conscience couldn’t take it anymore, and often in clubs, borderline abuse (I say borderline because it would be abuse in any other setting) occurs every day from men who believe that because they paid to see you naked, they paid to do whatever they like with you.. like a rag doll. My body became a product, and I paid a price for that physically and mentalky. I have many many stories, maybe one day I will share those too.

I have seen requests of the sort "sex workers are human beings, treat them with courtesy" on the webpages of a few brothels, which is quite disheartening. I think the reason goes deeper than men feeling entitled to treating sex workers' bodies like commodities, many seem to look down and be slightly contemptuous of sex workers. I get that vibe even here from some members based on the language they use.

PS: Also interested in your stories.

 

[sunchyme1]

sh*t man that was some brutal sh*t to read georgie

please tell me you got some revenge on those c****

i hope at least you can kick the sh*t out of hair loss

 

[shookwun]

I'm going to be mister negative guy here. I don't understand, what's so big deal with being virgin?
Why even press yourself so hard? Tell me, what has changed since you lost your virginity? Nothing did. You put too much value on vain things.

Because healthy minded men have sex, and don't put much value on it outside of it being a basic biological need. So of course, it's easy to rant and be like it doesn;t matter bro!

He's trying to overcome his fear which is something most men face.

In fact most men are terrified of approaching women. it's a horrible paradox to be inbetween. But one must get over the fear to enjoy the fruit

 

[Georgie]

Are you willingly following the path of inaffectionism or you believe that it is inherited damage that can't be undone?

It was done before the stripping. This is years worth of damage. Every relationship that I had been it, it has been an issue. I’m not incapable of love, but I struggle with being touched and held, which is confusing given that I used to generally throw myself at a man right at the start of I liked him, because again, I thought this was the way to make a man like me. Honestly, love for me isn’t even vaguely physical.

 

[CaptainForehead]

@Afro_Vacancy yes, you do sound sweet by the sounds. In my expedience, the ones who seem to have lacked a female touch or attention always are.

Not always, some go crazy (Elliot R)

For me, I’d lost my virginity, technically when I was 3 years old.

3 years old?!

When I was 18, I was raped in my sleep. Then again that year, I was locked in someone’s house.. and it happened. My entire worth as a female had been eaten away by men who took what they wanted from me. I developed anorexia as a teen because all I ever saw was an abomination, and to fix that I felt I had to fix my appearance. Similarly, when I was 19, I had just come out of a physically abusive relationship, I didn’t have a job, I hated everything, and I thought “what do I do with myself? What am I good for?”, the first response in my mind was “giving your body away”. So I did, and I allowed men to degrade me daily, because it’s what I felt I was worth. I did however learn a lot from those expeicnes, and became somehow more resilient and street-smart from having to constantly watch my back for men who would follow/stalk me. I’m now kind of an inaffectionate b**ch. It’s sad how it’s ended now. I wish I could say I walked through the fire and came out stronger.

Damn, I'm sorry

 

[Georgie]

sh*t man that was some brutal sh*t to read georgie

please tell me you got some revenge on those c****

i hope at least you can kick the sh*t out of hair loss

I never told anyone until a couple of years ago, and the person who assaulted me when I was three was never dealt with. After the incident when I was locked inside a mans house, held down and abused I did try to kill myself in the weeks following. When I ended up in hospital, blood tests showed that I had chlamydia. Everyone assumed that I was just a wh***, and sadly since then I never had he heart to actually admit what happened, because my image as a human was already tarnished, I couldn’t let my parents go through anything like he pain I went through.

 

[Georgie]

Not always, some go crazy (Elliot R)


3 years old?!



Damn, I'm sorry

Yeah. Some humans are actually that sick inside their heads that they enjoy having sex with toddlers. It’s a messed up world we live in.

 

[shookwun]

It was done before the stripping. This is years worth of damage. Every relationship that I had been it, it has been an issue. I’m not incapable of love, but I struggle with being touched and held, which is confusing given that I used to generally throw myself at a man right at the start of I liked him, because again, I thought this was the way to make a man like me. Honestly, love for me isn’t even vaguely physical.

AHH, thank you for clarifying my post on how men are based on facts, and women need to be triggered emotionally. A man that makes her feel safe, secure and can even make her laugh is the man who is getting laid. I have had this confirmed with every women I have been with this year. These same women who said that they no intention in sleeping with me the following night. All confirmed the very idea that I made them feel good about themselves. And no, them recognizing i was handsome was not getting me laid.




Them being physically attracted to me was one piece of the puzzle.

 

[Endmymisery]

Yeah. Some humans are actually that sick inside their heads that they enjoy having sex with toddlers. It’s a messed up world we live in.

WTF. How do you know that it happened...? Do you remember ?

 

[Georgie]

I have seen requests of the sort "sex workers are human beings, treat them with courtesy" on the webpages of a few brothels, which is quite disheartening. I think the reason goes deeper than men feeling entitled to treating sex workers' bodies like commodities, many seem to look down and be slightly contemptuous of sex workers. I get that vibe even here from some members based on the language they use.

PS: Also interested in your stories.

I think you are very right. There were men who would come in and pay for the time just to humiliate the girls. One particular man used to come in and “order” men regularly. He would have me stand naked with my hands out by my side for 5 minutes. I wasn’t allowed to drop them. Then for the remained 20 minutes he would slap me all over my body. I was left with wets and bruises each time. The club didn’t care because they were being paid. I did nothing because I felt I deserved it.